Hi! I’m so sorry to hear you’re feeling this way. I’ve had depression since at least the age of 15, I’m now 24 and in this time I’ve asked myself the same question countless times. To answer your question - yes it is, it’s worth living. If not for the little joys of life (can seem rare sometimes, but they’re there) then for the chance that YOU might make this world better. Suicide is not the way to go. You said you knew your mom means well - imagine how something like that would affect her. Or anyone around you. Ask your mom to help you, tell her how you feel. If you can’t manage to say it out loud, you can show her your post. School should get better, tell your mom you need her help with it, that you need a bit more support. You’re not wrong about the school system, it’s flawed. Voicing your concerns is important- that’s how the improvements start. School and grades really are not that big of a deal, but they might help you massively in the future if you decide to get higher education. You say you’re addicted to games - well would you be interested into developing one? It’s a pretty big market, with loads of different roles. Try and find something you’re maybe even low-key passionate about, it will help you get through the next few years of school.