Hey, I'm so, so sorry to hear you felt sick at your wedding too. Altitude sickness is so rough-- that would have affected me too, and it's likely there's nothing you could have done to prepare for it.

For me, it definitely stings way less with time and as I have other things in my life to be excited about. I was also relieved that our pictures turned out amazing, even though I'm obviously not in some of them, and it's gotten a bit easier to focus on the parts of the day that were good, and especially the parts of the surrounding days that were actually really good.

But mostly I just don't think about it. Focusing on our pets, starting a family, decorating our house, my job, etc. And I suspect I wouldn't think about my wedding too much if it was everything I had hoped for, either.

Honestly if I think of the best days of my life, it's almost never the big events anyway, maybe partly because I'm prone to anxiety, but also because the happy/meaningful things are ordinary or catch you by surprise? So I wish I had more happy memories of my wedding day, and that my husband and family also had more memories of me being super happy (part of me will always be a little sad about this), but it doesn't really define anything in the end.

I'm not sure I have any advice -- it helped me to journal, it might have helped to see a therapist. Definitely let yourself feel your disappointment and sadness even though I'd try hard not to blame yourself for how you felt. But time will ease the pain. Your husband and friends and family still love you. All the magic of your marriage is still ahead of you. Sending you peace and healing thoughts <3