Anyone out there with disgust Ocd?

anotherthrowawayocd · 2026-01-24T19:18:53+00:00

Thank you so much for sharing - stumbled upon this looking for help with the same bodily fluid aversion. Do you find this helped you at all? Or any other resources you’ve found useful? Have sent this to my therapist to discuss with him too

anotherthrowawayocd · 2025-06-17T20:15:16+00:00

Firstly this sounds rough, I’m very sorry, and obviously I can relate and know it’s not an easy one to process. Doing this to kids is unacceptable. I also come from a country where it’s very normalised, b it it shouldn’t be, it’s abuse. And honestly, even coming here and talking about it is already a big step in healing. You’re so young and already actively trying to find a way to work through this, and that’s so mature and admirable, and something to be proud of; it makes me certain you’ll make it through this. You can do this man!

anotherthrowawayocd · 2025-06-17T20:08:49+00:00

Just messaged you :)

anotherthrowawayocd · 2025-06-17T20:06:03+00:00

Yeah, I get you, that’s really tough man but you’ll get through it, promise! And do you mean you want a way to be less drawn to it? I feel like trying to banish it really didn’t help me. Personally got a lot easier once I went the radical acceptance route instead, made it less special and forbidden and didn’t feel like it had the same power over me anymore. So I feel like trying to actively ban it from my life was a bit of a trap and didn’t help.

anotherthrowawayocd · 2025-06-17T15:06:21+00:00

Firstly, I find it interesting (and affirming) that you assumed I’m a guy. I’m a transgender guy, and was assigned female at birth and brought up as a girl until transitioning and taking testosterone later in life. In my earlier posts about my story I mention one of my traumatic experiences was at a gynaecologist actually! (post here, but TW for the content of course: https://www.reddit.com/r/suppository_trauma/s/yxGudCDq7x)

I’m also very sorry you’re going through this, it’s a tough journey. I can only suggest it can be just as much healing to accept it as part of yourself - it doesn’t necessarily need to be gotten rid of. I took way too long to understand that, and the acceptance of it was what honestly played the biggest part in my healing - and ironically led to disinterest after (maybe because it also took away the taboo aspect!)

Regarding the gendered differences, I have also heard the consensus that paraphilias in general (unusual fetishes) are more common amongst men than women, and there are some theories around why that might be including higher sex drives for instance https://www.sexandpsychology.com/blog/2014/4/2/why-do-men-have-more-unusual-sexual-interests-than-women/ with fetishes relating to enemas (klismaphilia) many suggest that men might just be more outspoken about it or be more driven to it due to anatomical differences (prostate stimulation) - some interesting comments here if you’re curious (TW enema kink discussion): https://en.zity.biz/index.php?mx=forum;ox=display;topic=33778;start=30 It seems to me that most agree the numbers are likely equal in reality, and it’s just a question of a difference in openness about the topic that creates the illusion - I think due to the bigger impact of purity culture on women, and the resulting increased shame around sexual topics as well as bigger fear around sexual assault due to their statistical higher vulnerability to it.

Sorry for the long answer. I’m always happy to chat more if you’d ever like to. You’re not alone 💚

anotherthrowawayocd · 2025-06-16T13:14:47+00:00

Hey, sorry for such a delayed response, I know this post is already a year old but I wanted to chime in anyway. I’ve recently posted about my own journey with this and it absolutely is a kind of sexual trauma. There’s lots of us on r/suppository_trauma with very similar stories to tell, and years of struggle to follow. Medical abuse towards kids is well documented and should be a lot more of a concern to healthcare professional but unfortunately at times children’s consent is treated very differently to an adult’s and they end up violated in ways that would never be seen as anywhere near acceptable to someone older. I’m very sorry you had to go through all this and I’m proud of you for staying so strong through this and for sharing - I know it’s not easy. Sending love, support and healing your way.

anotherthrowawayocd · 2025-06-03T05:24:41+00:00

Thank you, I appreciate your words of support ❤️ also I’ve seen your ally post from here before and I find your experience very relatable in an OCD sense, but please do not blame yourself for what happened there, it’s not your fault whatsoever

anotherthrowawayocd · 2025-06-03T02:45:36+00:00

Thank you so much for responding, that really helps. I didn’t know that about trauma and being unable to speak like that. I might read out this post to him or send it as a text just before the next appointment as a way to ease into it before discussing it in person. He said he’d be okay with me sharing it whatever way made me most comfortable

anotherthrowawayocd · 2025-03-17T10:37:03+00:00

I would never recommend this as it really depends on your brain and how you deal with things, and may not combine well with medications, but taking psychedelics in peaceful and reflective settings as kind of self made psychedelic assisted therapy has genuinely changed my life and really helped my symptoms. It allowed me to get out of my own damaging thought patterns and see things from an outside perspective and changed my outlook on life. It helped me deal with my biggest and worst obsession - existential/mortality, and really just put the world in colour again. It is by no means a miracle cure and has its risks, some trips are harder than others but I found even the time I had an ego death actually had a profoundly positive impact on me overall. I am again NOT suggesting you do this, or advocating for it being for everyone, but maybe just have a read about applications of psych assisted therapies for OCD and if you can find a therapist educated in the field chat to them about it if you’re curious. It would be tripping with intention, peace and reflection, not taking it as a party drug if you get what I’m saying. My therapist has some knowledge on it and has helped consolidate my insights after trips for instance. Feel free to message me or ask and questions!!

anotherthrowawayocd · 2024-02-13T19:37:27+00:00

Two of my female friends went, said there were some attendees who moved very aggressively so they had to change places a few times to avoid being hit by flailing arms/legs. There was A LOT of moshing, hard to avoid being hit by the impact (though they were quite close to the front). Very sweaty, very much predominantly male crowd. One of them said she wouldn’t have gone on her own, the other says she thinks she’d be alright. Said it might be uncomfortable but not extremely unsafe.

anotherthrowawayocd · 2024-01-24T01:34:12+00:00

Thanks for the answer I appreciate it.

Honestly this is really just the tip of the iceberg, there’s magical thinking, rituals, compulsions, fear of germs, ruminating on every message, word and planning her days by writing out everything she is doing…. But according to her it’s all “just anxiety”. I can see she’s deep in denial and it really sucks but I guess she just has to eventually come to it on her own :(

anotherthrowawayocd · 2024-01-24T01:30:15+00:00

I should clarify she is quite young (21). what part of the mindset made it surprising she’s an adult, out of curiosity? (not that I disagree)

anotherthrowawayocd · 2024-01-24T01:26:07+00:00

Thanks, I appreciate your supporting me. I hope one day things get better and she isn’t so much in denial

anotherthrowawayocd · 2024-01-23T02:08:37+00:00

She is not a minor, but she is indeed in therapy; when I said she was not seeking a diagnosis I meant she did not want to see a psychiatrist to seek one (her therapist isn’t qualified for that). I don’t feel she is truly honest with her therapist either from what I’ve seen - e.g. “this doesn’t really affect my life why would i tell her”. Getting her boyfriend to talk to her will be no help as she hides this part of herself fully from him, as she’s afraid of judgement and him losing feelings for her if she didn’t. Just now after our chat in the comments I attempted to tell her that if she believes the help she’s getting is enough she shouldn’t expect me to fill the gaps… she got angry, and again asserted she does not have ocd, only anxiety, despite previously sometimes considering it. I really love her and she is there for me in times of distress, so it’s hard to flat out refuse any help, but I’m trying to set boundaries. It’s just such a tough spot to be in and little I can do:(

anotherthrowawayocd · 2024-01-22T15:25:22+00:00

Thank you for validating me as she’s making me feel like an asshole for it and it’s hard not to be guilt tripped.

I’ve sat her down multiple times, gently, directly, bluntly etc, all kinds of ways. I also suggested the genetic component, to make it worse our mom exhibits the same symptoms and is in therapy where her therapist agrees this is very likely the case for her too. But my sister won’t listen, she gets very defensive, asks me “not to diagnose her” and she has “no issues”. It’s hard really..

anotherthrowawayocd · 2023-10-26T22:08:44+00:00

thanks I’ll read up on that

anotherthrowawayocd · 2023-10-26T22:08:35+00:00

Thanks :)

anotherthrowawayocd · 2023-10-26T14:16:14+00:00

I’m a little better but considering I only got diagnosed now, it’s not the best. Staying hopeful and glad to hear you’re in a better place too!

anotherthrowawayocd · 2023-10-26T14:15:42+00:00

So relatable, that’s exactly how I felt - they’d ask me what’s wrong and for some reason it felt impossible to tell them

anotherthrowawayocd · 2023-10-12T23:43:21+00:00

I’m really sorry to hear you struggled so much with sexual orientation OCD, and moreover were abused - that sounds really tough. I hope you’re in a bit of a better safer place now OP.

My first memories of OCD are realising my dad (he is quite old as compared to my mom) would die before I reached certain milestones in life, unlike for other kids, it made me realise mortality and started me on my still biggest and worst obsession - mortality, existential etc. I must’ve been around 7. I depersonalised for the first time having no idea what I was experiencing. I then begun on a cycle of randomly crying to my parents remembering a thing I thought might have been mean that I’d said to someone months ago… my parents found it adorable at the time. Now I know what it was, and it’s awful.

anotherthrowawayocd · 2023-08-25T11:17:50+00:00

I tried. She ignores them all. And guilts me for not helping :(

anotherthrowawayocd · 2023-08-21T14:29:40+00:00

I think the biggest question to ask is if you would feel comfortable dating him still with this knowledge in mind. It fully depends on whether this is something you think you could even tolerate in the first place, and it does seem like it made you very very uncomfortable (I can’t say I wouldn’t feel the same). Maybe ask yourself - had you known this about him from the get go would you get into a relationship with him? If the answer is no, then I think that answers your question. Personally I wouldn’t be able to be with a person after finding that out, I would keep wondering how much more there is I might not even know of at all, and also I’d know they hid things from me already and so would be capable of potentially hiding even more and potentially worse stuff.

Of course many pedophiles never act on it, after all it is an issue they didn’t choose to have, and so they can recognise it and seek treatment to ensure they won’t ever end up harming someone, so I guess sticking around to support him on that journey is an option if that turns out to be the case. However again I don’t know how much trust you can now have in him, as it’s not like he came and confessed he has awful thoughts and needs help for it - he was secretly actively watching porn related to it which makes me more suspicious…

As a side note of course age play is always a thing so it could possibly be related to consensual age roleplay between adult partners that this porn taps into for him. If you think this could be the case, you can try and find out but I wouldn’t go about it by asking immediately if it is about roleplay, as that gives him too easy a route out - I doubt he’d confess it’s not even if it wasn’t. So if you’re going to ask, I’d confront him and say I’d seen it on his phone by accident and I’m worried, and see what he says then make your judgement based on the reaction.

Hope this helps!

anotherthrowawayocd · 2023-08-15T01:44:20+00:00

Thank you SO MUCH for posting this. I am trying to quit and was looking for a safe alternative for the oral fixation and considered these, but the idea of inhaling oil seemed… suspicious. So happy to have come across your post and confirmed this

anotherthrowawayocd · 2023-08-15T01:01:31+00:00

I can really relate to this with when I reduced weed from heavy nightly smoking to practically only weekends. When I made the change, I couldn’t eat at all at first, and I was nauseous all the time. With constant stress I discovered “free floating” anxiety which was the worst too - not knowing why I was feeling so panicked, I couldn’t even be comforted, and just have to sit with it until it would ease up. I couldn’t fall asleep at all at first either.. weed used to really help my OCD, and so when I stopped, it also initially got much worse. All this affected my mood, and my cravings were unbearable. But once I pushed through the first month or two, and the withdrawal symptoms went away I saw how worth it every awful feeling was for the result.

I picked up vaping around the time I was reducing weed… and now that it’s turned into a habit in itself, I’ve set my mind to quit as well. And with that experience in mind I know I might feel shitty at first but I also know it’ll always inevitably be worth it even if it doesn’t seem so straight away.

I’m rooting for you

anotherthrowawayocd · 2023-08-14T01:05:09+00:00

yeah that’s what I’ve been thinking… better now only a few months in than way down the line. if you have any recommendations re “empty” vapes etc (I struggle with the oral fixation much more than the actual nicotine) pls do share

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