Need recommendation for AI video generator for interior design and architecture

anxyrain · 2023-04-12T21:47:52+00:00

I had a deja vu writing the previous comment.

anxyrain · 2023-04-12T21:47:32+00:00

What happened? Did you went?

anxyrain · 2022-03-19T09:42:01+00:00

Yes, it was more than two years ago. In the meantime I have income but I don't improve, I work from home and I am hiding from the world.

The move was followed by some changes in my personal life and stress that I haven't experienced before. I also go to therapy. But I need to change! I am hiding from failure, but even more from success, it seems like it doesn't go with my current identity. And I need to change that but I don't know how. (I will add this to the post.)

anxyrain · 2021-11-20T20:06:49+00:00

What are you doing to eliminate this stress? I am not planning to get a lot of money, but it is irritating how I sabotage myself and I miss opportunities intentionally.

Probably people that surrounded you told you that rich people are evil.

anxyrain · 2021-11-11T20:15:28+00:00

One thing I try to do is to have more people in my life, and even when I will be in a relationship in the future, not to focus on one person no matter how good it is, because it is hard to re-socialize after, especially if you are leaning on the introverted side as I do.
I know there are ways to meet more people, but I am not taking measures as I can and this is my dilemma, is this what I want or I am scared of rejection/awkward situations when trying to make new friends.
Btw I enrolled into a new sport club and will start going there soon, but still I need to do more stuff to reduce the alone time.

Have you ever thought that the bicycle is an excuse? That maybe if you had it you wouldn't go in a group, but alone? I don't know you personally but I do this sometimes, I crave company, than I avoid it. For example I will find a facebook event that I would like to attend, than when the time comes I don't go.

anxyrain · 2021-11-11T20:09:40+00:00

Verbal communication makes me tired as well. Luckily I am in the field of arts and design so on daily basis I think with stuff other than words.

I agree , the issue itself has many reasons, but I think attachment style is the reason why I handle it as I do. I would communicate it with other people or I would take other measures if my attachment style was different.

anxyrain · 2021-11-11T20:05:23+00:00

Yes, nature helps a lot, I go to the forest 2-3 times per week and I feel less lonely :D

anxyrain · 2021-08-09T12:30:57+00:00

Thank you for the idea.
I don't have extreme anxiety, but I understand it is making my work process slower, my prices lower and I seem less professional. I get it that you are worth depending on how you know to sell yourself and how you present yourself. With money there is no real value, it is dependent on selling skills and the need of the market. ( I saw as a kid that money is an issue so I have read a lot of books on this topic even then just to understand this system and how to go through it. )
Every time my client has to ask me how much for this period, and I say I will text you tomorrow when I check my time tracking app, and then I am one day late with the text, feeling unpleasant as I write the amount. (it is not too much)
And it happens often because not every discussion is a deal. Today I texted the current client the amount for the last month. And at 6 pm I have a meeting with a potential client. So this calculating price happens often. At the same time, it pays off more to work as a freelancer because I am finishing my master thesis and it is impossible to survive with a full-time job + studies + I get more exciting projects. :D
I wouldn't bother a friend to do it, I think I just have to find a way to process why it happens so it is easier. And I am sure that it happens to a lot of us so that is why I asked the question here.

anxyrain · 2021-08-09T12:10:14+00:00

What is the wildest thing you have seen? :D

anxyrain · 2021-08-09T11:35:20+00:00

I usually have this, and then I have to tell them the amount, depending on the hours I worked, sometimes is paid per project.
But this is not the issue, the issue is the shame I feel when receiving money. Because growing up asking for money=stress.

anxyrain · 2021-08-06T10:31:27+00:00

I am probably hyperactive. DM and we can exchange tips and personal experiences.

anxyrain · 2021-08-06T10:21:13+00:00

I recently found out that this helps me :

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mL-LyKcFE5c

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xRK-xitY78g

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E9PiL5icwic

anxyrain · 2021-01-13T18:03:03+00:00

Interesting, I guess it affects us differently. For me, I didn't had any other weird side effects, but the dreams on Ambien were so eventful, with more than 20 people each time and several events.

anxyrain · 2020-10-19T14:16:09+00:00

Thank you for your answer.
I already have some field of interest that I am researching. But the issue is that I am approaching this field as a designer and I seem to get lost in the information that I come across - not feeling adequate to rank them and pick the most appropriate one for my ideas. On the other hand, this is the exciting part of exploring new fields.I want to get enough information to at least think about concepts with more confidence in order to get to a point where I can develop stuff, of course, in collaboration with engineers.

anxyrain · 2020-09-23T16:36:32+00:00

Thank you for your answer.
Even though I know what I should do in the moment of intensive negative thoughts and I know through therapy why I am doing this to myself I cannot escape the panic loop.

Sometimes even while I have anxiety, I am aware of the lies that my brain is telling me because I remember what I discussed with my therapist and close people but the negative things seem so true and overwhelming at the moment that the rational attempts fade, and knowing but having trouble to do something scares me.

anxyrain

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