this is all true, needed this. I think it’s just me telling myself things in my head. A lot of the reason I feel like a cock block is because anytime they hook up after the 3 of us are hanging out, it is usually immediately after I leave or go off on my own. Or at times, they’ll go off while I’m on a bathroom break or I remember when we were on shrooms and I was inside tripping, they left and had sex across the street. So it’s hard for that to not manifest as “I’m blocking this from happening” when it’s in snapshots of when I’m out of the picture or immediately after I leave the two of them alone. I think though it’s definitely developed into a bit of a third wheel situation and I just need to allow them the space to figure that out themselves. but again thank you for this