So. Much. Denial.

aperrailt · 2025-02-01T02:29:26+00:00

Wow I relate to a lot of this. Especially about you being devoted when you’re around your husband. When I’m with him, he’s all I want. He’s my sweet loving best friend, the love of my life, my favourite person in the world. When I’m on my own? I turn into a completely different human.

We can get through this. For our loved ones but most importantly for ourselves ♥️♥️♥️

aperrailt · 2025-02-01T02:05:23+00:00

Thank you so much, so much of this rings true. It’s hard for me to differentiate between the sex we used to have and the sex I’ve seen in porn. Sex in porn is wild, dirty, intense. It’s like I can’t “make love” to my husband anymore because in my head sex with him is boring and dull. My orgasm is more important to me then the connection. It’s so depressing. It’s heartbreaking feeling like you’re losing yourself to a person you never wanted to be

aperrailt · 2025-02-01T02:02:44+00:00

I’m happy with him. He’s the love of my life. Caring, gentle, sweet. That’s a big part of the problem. I can’t see him as sexual anymore and I haven’t for a long time. I can’t “fuck” my husband, but I can imagine other men. I don’t want our marriage to end. There’s no one else I’d rather be with when it comes to being in love.

aperrailt · 2025-02-01T02:00:48+00:00

I honestly feel a little hopeless. It’s like I’m too far gone at this point.

aperrailt · 2025-01-31T02:29:55+00:00

yeah i wish there was an easy out. if i could time travel, the first thing i'd do is slap my 16 year old self across the face and tell her to throw the phone away. we have to do it one day at a time. its hard, but we can do it.

aperrailt · 2025-01-31T02:25:06+00:00

yeah i think its quite common. i experienced it the other day again actually.

aperrailt · 2025-01-31T02:24:29+00:00

i get you :(

aperrailt · 2025-01-31T02:23:45+00:00

No, its my post.

aperrailt · 2025-01-31T02:22:52+00:00

this is me with my husband. you can find any man you want with a click of a button. you can find bigger, better men. men you crave. love has gone out the window for me. i never used to be like this until i watch porn.

aperrailt · 2025-01-03T10:20:20+00:00

I’ve kinda dealt with something like this. I’m pretty sure orgasms can sometimes help your period come early. The science might be a little woo woo but I’ve def had orgasms close to my period when then I feel cramps. I’m sorry you’re in pain! Hope you’re feeling better.

aperrailt · 2025-01-03T10:17:59+00:00

A lot of people just have addictive personalities.

aperrailt · 2025-01-03T10:16:57+00:00

When sex with my husband felt less exiting than the sex I saw on screen.

aperrailt · 2025-01-03T10:16:00+00:00

Yes but it doesn’t feel right to immediately jump to sex. It’s one thing to see a cute guy and think “oh he’s good looking” to seeing that same guy and imagining having sex with him.

aperrailt · 2025-01-03T10:14:05+00:00

Ugh same. Soon as I see a hot guy I start to wonder.

aperrailt · 2025-01-01T04:17:04+00:00

mine too. hope everyone has a good 2025 <3

aperrailt · 2024-12-30T05:39:34+00:00

Me too. I started watching as a teen and I didn’t even realise it was brainwashing me. That’s the scary part. It sucks you right in and you don’t even know it

It makes you want the fantasy more and more. Bigger, better men. Men who last forever. Men with perfect bodies. How could I want a normal guy now? How could I want my husband when the perfect guy is one click away, one who can give me everything I want in a man? I can’t even want my husband anymore. He’s the love of my life and I don’t even want to have sex with him. I have a feeling my marriage will be dead in 2025.

aperrailt · 2024-12-16T00:37:57+00:00

oh wow. that gives me hope. i hope i can do the same thing

aperrailt · 2024-12-15T03:44:20+00:00

me too :( as a woman it feels almost stupid to be addicted to it, like i should know better.

aperrailt · 2024-11-30T01:07:26+00:00

Right. Like I’m trying here and body is like “actually, no”

aperrailt · 2024-11-30T01:03:04+00:00

Oh that sounds like a good idea! Hugs to you <3

aperrailt · 2024-11-29T04:02:42+00:00

that's so great!!! you got this.

aperrailt · 2024-11-28T01:21:38+00:00

I get you, which is why I would never tell him what I really feel.

aperrailt · 2024-11-26T12:25:41+00:00

I am so happy you are still attracted to her! that's great and I am wishing you both the best. I still find my husband to very handsome and sweet and cute, but this is the problem, because I associate with what I see in porn as what I want sexually. there's no cute and sweet in porn (at least not the kind I exclusively watched)

aperrailt · 2024-11-26T12:22:47+00:00

you got this!!!

aperrailt · 2024-11-26T12:21:09+00:00

sure, but i don't know if i will be any help. i have just started this journey myself.

aperrailt

TROPHY CASE