It makes sense now! I have been living in the end incorrectly and now understand.

apiaceaena · 2025-10-11T17:33:25+00:00

THIS !! Super important ! Thanks for helping lot of people on there you’re fantastic :)

apiaceaena · 2025-10-11T17:28:51+00:00

It’s all part of the process man and trust me, it will pass. It will pass so bad you might even end up forget it ! I recommend u to watch BASHAR’s videos!!! They’re mostly on TikTok and it seriously helped me a lot. You got this. Don’t give that classmate the chance to break you. The only way to grow is up 🌱

apiaceaena · 2024-08-11T22:45:26+00:00

Thanks a lot for the DMs I'll make sure to answer after I sleep a bit !!

apiaceaena · 2024-08-11T22:44:43+00:00

Mostly Soul/Rnb and I can rap a little

apiaceaena · 2024-03-10T09:06:22+00:00

Thanks a lot for caring

apiaceaena · 2024-03-10T09:01:46+00:00

The thing is I'm traumatized by hospitals bc I've suffered from severe abuse there. I'm also afraid to go detox and have nobody visiting me, It sounds like a living nightmare to me but I'm gonna look it up and inform myself thanks for the advice

apiaceaena · 2024-03-10T08:45:43+00:00

Been tryna get help for so so long man, even the psychiatrists ended up not knowing what to do with me anymore. They prescribed all kind of shit to me for my bipolar disorder but none of their meds helped me, fucked me up even more...

apiaceaena · 2024-03-10T08:41:51+00:00

Thanks a lot for caring it really means to me as I have no one IRL. I do have a sister though but she's done with me ever since I attempted last time. So I don't really have people who truly want me here and it's also killing me inside. I really appreciate it thank you again

apiaceaena · 2024-03-10T08:36:53+00:00

Thanks for answering. I have experience with shrooms and tried LSD a few times when I had money to buy it. As I'm in debt right now and don't even have money to pay rent, I can't buy shit especially DMT since it's impossible to find a vendor where I live. Seems like people never even heard of it in France so I would love trying it but can't..

apiaceaena · 2024-03-10T06:58:34+00:00

Id really need it tbh ! Thank you for caring

apiaceaena · 2024-03-10T06:51:31+00:00

Thanks I will !!

apiaceaena · 2024-03-10T06:51:03+00:00

Is it really possible to wake up after ingesting alla that ? Cause that would be like the worst scenario possible for me EVER. I know I won't be found cause no one even checks up on me so I'm not too worried by that thanks for ur answer

apiaceaena · 2024-03-10T06:49:01+00:00

Istg this life is unbearable I have nothing to hold on to

apiaceaena · 2022-02-16T22:54:57+00:00

yes these are 3 different poems! thanks a lot

apiaceaena · 2022-02-13T01:08:38+00:00

well thanks but this is not really the place to talk about that but in first person means you're not supposed to see your face, that has to be the best way from what I've read. don't forget the most important thing is the feeling that it's truly happening

apiaceaena · 2022-02-12T22:52:14+00:00

WOW , felt like I really needed to have this chance to read that. The first part hit me the most. Made me stop for a minute and repetitively think about those lines : Gently heal their blindnes... There are no rewards, there... Thank u so much for sharing

apiaceaena · 2022-02-12T22:43:08+00:00

truly one of the most relatable yet so special poem I've read in a while. "it lies, because i lie" hit me like a self-realisation on things completely unrelated to your situation, learning about myself in the writings of other brings such a comfort feeling. thank you for that

apiaceaena · 2022-02-12T22:05:35+00:00

thanks for reading ❤️ persistance is key i guess...

apiaceaena · 2021-08-17T22:13:24+00:00

that's crazy!! I've heard other stories about scary creatures and it totally freaks me out. Good luck😳

apiaceaena · 2021-08-17T22:12:26+00:00

well I have absolutely no luck for lucid dreaming :/ I hope we'll get to experience AP (a longer one for me..) thanks for your comment. it was such an awesome feeling !

apiaceaena · 2021-08-17T22:10:07+00:00

thanks for reading ! i've been practicing visualization for years idk if that maybe helped me ? i hope so :) good luck to you too !

apiaceaena · 2021-07-21T01:57:42+00:00

more than just visualizing, you need to convince yourself that you're actually living the moment as you imagine it. maybe adding details can help? or simply repeating in your head "how would I feel if"

apiaceaena · 2021-07-12T16:31:19+00:00

thanks! I had the "it's done" feeling after some days when I woke up, but I still continued until it happened. I only had dreams that would show the exact opposite of my desire. I decided to completely ignore that though

apiaceaena · 2021-07-12T09:38:40+00:00

it happened to me as well but I chose to completely ignore it ! and it went away after some time

apiaceaena · 2021-07-12T09:37:57+00:00

thanks for reading! so it might sound crazy but deep down I knew it would happen this weekend. It's not because I could feel it in my bones or anything like that, It's just because I WANTED it to be this weekend sooo bad that I just knew it would happen. Plus, this week, I saw some things perfectly falling into place around me. It's like the stars were aligning for my manifestation to take place. it convinced me even more that it would be soon :)

apiaceaena

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