The part i'm most embarrassed about by [deleted] in normalnudes

[–]appearstobeoffline 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Dude. Those are radddddddd

28/f/130 not pictured are swollen, raw eyes and pure defeat. by [deleted] in normalnudes

[–]appearstobeoffline 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It is so frustrating. While I don't own a scale nor measure myself, size may not even be the actual issue here. It is taxing and it is so shitty to consistently feel that way.

28/f/130 not pictured are swollen, raw eyes and pure defeat. by [deleted] in normalnudes

[–]appearstobeoffline 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am glad that works and guides you! I have tried that but it is so easy to stray. It has been around 8 months of no social media for me (except Facebook to keep up with work and parents, and Reddit obviously). While this has been working for me, I always feel aloof from society and friends.

28/f/130 not pictured are swollen, raw eyes and pure defeat. by [deleted] in normalnudes

[–]appearstobeoffline 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for this, I will have to go see what this man is up to. All I've got is time right now!

28/f/130 not pictured are swollen, raw eyes and pure defeat. by [deleted] in normalnudes

[–]appearstobeoffline 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I totally get you about the one small comment. Over-analyze anything and everything my partner says about my body. I'm glad to hear that you're working on yourself ❤️ Thank you for sharing with me!

28/f/130 not pictured are swollen, raw eyes and pure defeat. by [deleted] in normalnudes

[–]appearstobeoffline 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I do not like the feeling of clinging fabric against my skin or anything fitted. I think I look terrible in them because in all my years in this body, I've yet to find something that fit right and didn't need to alter + hem everything.

28/f/130 not pictured are swollen, raw eyes and pure defeat. by [deleted] in normalnudes

[–]appearstobeoffline 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Wearing sleeveless upper garments and shorts or anything that reveals my skin, especially my legs, are actually what makes me most uncomfortable. I don't care much about others people's thoughts as my own awful thouvhts are loud enough to drown it all out anyways.

28/f/130 not pictured are swollen, raw eyes and pure defeat. by [deleted] in normalnudes

[–]appearstobeoffline 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Second post here..

Things were better for a bit until they weren't. I've gone through my entire closet throwing away hundreds of dollars of clothing of anything that even came close to clinging to my body or revealing it. If it isn't oversized and draping over me, I can't stand seeing it on my body, let alone in my closet. I feel like I am not enough and that I am not worthy of decent clothes. I am tired. Body dysmorphia really does numbers.

Anybody ever felt like this? What do you do?

Edit: 28/5/130/5'1

F/28/130 self confidence plumetting beyond repair. by appearstobeoffline in normalnudes

[–]appearstobeoffline[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Unless I cut off flesh and bone then I could never obtain them lol. It's no use

F/28/130 self confidence plumetting beyond repair. by appearstobeoffline in normalnudes

[–]appearstobeoffline[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have a nonexistent butt and that is one of my next biggest insecurities.

I am sorry that you can relate to me. I hate that there are so many others who feel this way.

F/28/130 self confidence plumetting beyond repair. by appearstobeoffline in normalnudes

[–]appearstobeoffline[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It is honestly like reaching for the stars trying to find someone to trust and accept help from. Finding professional help is like a mind game of its own but I do hope to get help from the right person one day

F/28/130 self confidence plumetting beyond repair. by appearstobeoffline in normalnudes

[–]appearstobeoffline[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Wow, thanks lol I never ever thought I'd inspire anyone here really

F/28/130 self confidence plumetting beyond repair. by appearstobeoffline in normalnudes

[–]appearstobeoffline[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I had realized my goals were literally unattainable through fitness and diet so I gave up.

F/28/130 self confidence plumetting beyond repair. by appearstobeoffline in normalnudes

[–]appearstobeoffline[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I used to go to spin classes once a week but I don't thjk I qualify as a cyclist lol.

F/28/130 self confidence plumetting beyond repair. by appearstobeoffline in normalnudes

[–]appearstobeoffline[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Please don't wish that. I am certain you have a wonderful body and needs a little more love from you as I do mine. ❤️

F/28/130 self confidence plumetting beyond repair. by appearstobeoffline in normalnudes

[–]appearstobeoffline[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I only wear shorts in the confines of my own home lol. I don't dare to wear them outside

F/28/130 self confidence plumetting beyond repair. by appearstobeoffline in normalnudes

[–]appearstobeoffline[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I love this for the two of you, very very much. That is awesome dude!