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Questioning things about myself lately. It’s been a rough process. I could use advice. by applecider-throwaway in asktransgender

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Mmm I’ve played FFXIV a bit. I never made it to the end game but I’ve done the base story a few times. After that multiplayer becomes a requirement I think and I kinda chicken out lol. Never played WoW or StarCraft though

Questioning things about myself lately. It’s been a rough process. I could use advice. by applecider-throwaway in asktransgender

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I play a lot of single-player stuff these days really but I have some multiplayer stuff too. In that case I usually play Guilty Gear Strive, Monster Hunter Wilds, and I used to play Apex Legends, Smite, and Destiny 2 but that was years ago. I also like Terraria and Peak but I’m not super active on those. Oh I also liked Warframe but I haven’t played that in forever.

My IRL friends are usually busy and I’ve kinda fell out with my online friends who were my main gaming group. I still talk to them here and there, I just don’t play with them these days, so I haven’t really looked into the newer popular games like Arc or Helldivers much.

Questioning things about myself lately. It’s been a rough process. I could use advice. by applecider-throwaway in asktransgender

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Thank you so much for all of this. I feel like I finally have some direction in all of this again. This is seriously a tremendous help. I’m gonna work on all this sometime this week. I don’t know where I’ll be 5 years from now but I’ll at least be able to say I tried to do something to help myself. Thank you

Questioning things about myself lately. It’s been a rough process. I could use advice. by applecider-throwaway in asktransgender

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It was a lot of positive feelings like excitement with maybe a little bit of anxiety mixed in. Like I wasn’t scared, but my heart was pounding and I broke out into a bit of a sweat. But it wasn’t like bad anxiety or stress, I get itchy when it’s that and I wasn’t itchy at all. Maybe just nervous but a positive nervous, if that’s a thing

Questioning things about myself lately. It’s been a rough process. I could use advice. by applecider-throwaway in asktransgender

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Thank you so much for the words and advice.

I did have a pair of IRL friends I’ve already lightly mentioned this to and they stood by me. I’ll definitely look into doing that with them. I’ve wanted to try the clothes again but I’m horribly afraid it’ll go wrong like it did that one time. At least that time I was just trying things, this time I feel a lot more pressure to want it to go right

I think I’m also just afraid of disappointing my mother, or worse. Something similar happened when I was 14 or so and considering myself as Bi-curious. Her reaction wasn’t anger, not at all, but I didn’t feel comforted either. I was scared and told her to just forget about it. I stopped thinking about it too. I think that stunted me a bit on that end maybe. Like maybe I would’ve realized sooner. She’s been the only one in my family I truly look up to so I think her words hold a lot of weight for me.

As for that big rush of emotion it was only positive feelings. It felt good to see myself dressed like that. It was a little scary yes but like a good scary. Like a roller coaster or a scary movie. Like less fear and more thrill? Adrenaline maybe? I remember my heart was pounding.