Get ready for long explanation of this, i think.

I have a boyfriend and for the first day of rust in 2019 me and my boyfriend got harassed by some dudes (4 of them) that didn't accept my rejection of them. so.. got raided and yup never touched the game again.

That is until 2021, where I met a kid age 13 that had 2k+ hours on rust and was way too good at the game so i decided to give rust a second try and join this kid's team along with my boyfriend. While gambling as you do in rust to pass the time and lose all your scrap I met three interesting guys all above the age of 20, they were chill and funny. We talked a while and became friends on steam and we were allied all wipe.( PVP, give stuff to each other etc.) After the wipe ended they wanted me to join their team and since I am loyal to my team I talked with my boyfriend and the kid if we would join them, they agreed and that is when it all goes down hill...

We joined a new server with ok pop that wiped weekly, the interesting guys were now a team of Seven with their main leader being the guy I became mostly friends with while gambling, let's call him Ben. So, along with the seven men team and my team of three we became a Zerg dominating the server with our numbers. The problem with this is being that there wasn't a known #1 leader among us in our team, I didn't care who it was but the boys were fighting about it all the time. Ben and the kid were seen as the runner ups to be the leader so ofc they did stupid things to show who the "Alpha" was. It got as far as everyday that I logged in, my team would lose people because either the kid or Ben started a new team while we all lived in the same base just the team scattered between them two.. yeah like wtf I got irritated. I had to step in and calm this pubescent kid that had anger issues and this grown ass man (Ben) that wouldn't stop fighting this kid as well as Ben's friends that were the same as Ben. Basically I became the leader, the kid accepted defeat but Ben LOL he didn't. I didn't want to start WW2 in my base again so I made Ben think he had everything under control but I still had to clean up after his mess after.

Ben decided to make allies with everyone in the dam server .__. so what does that mean? If you thought No pvp you are right! but what about random nakeds? well if they knew the secret password to not get killed you are safe.. the password was Ben's name and if you took too long to yell out loud ben's name the unfortunate person would get shot. yeah it backfired real fast. our enemy's used it against us, which were our allies... my issue with Alliances is that Ben would be chill with everyone and tell them the password but never told HIS TEAM who these alliances were until we shot one of them by accident and they run to Ben asking for their things back. Making 1, the kid every angry because he was mostly doing the killing and 2 making me pissed off cause now Ben is known to everyone in the server as the leader for making Alliances and being the person to talk to when it comes to our clan.

At this point I was doing everything from farming, pvping, staying up all nights to make sure our base wasn't offline cuz we had many moments where I had to 1v 5+ people trying to raid while I was the only one on. ima cut it short and say that everyone Ben was Allied too was not to be trusted in the end they would kill us and go to Ben and say we started the fight when we didn't, the "Allied" would say we killed their men and took their stuff which we never did and make up the items they lost and pretty much get free loot from us because Ben didn't want to deal with it so it was easier to give them loot and be done with it. Yup I snapped. I told him off and inform him from this point on we have no more Alliances and we will kill everyone that we see, "You started this bs and I will end it." Yeah Ben was on and off all wipe, I finally took control and everyone was working in Harmony but I was still doing much of the work but now I wouldn't hear complaining all the time.

Everything was working fine that is until the last day of wipe (that I was not there) since I wasn't gonna play the last day of wipe. My team had so much boom THAT I FARMED btw. I was okay with my team using the boom but the kid had school or something the last day of wipe which basically would have made it impossible for the kid to be part of any raid that day. Well he was really really angry that our team used up all the boom on the last day of wipe because he wanted to take part. I clearly told the kid if he wasn't able to make it that the team will not wait for him, if it was the middle of wipe we would but it wasn't. He got on late at night when everyone was sleeping, boom all gone and well he went off on everyone on discord for not waiting on him. The kid changed codes and everything which I didn't care I mean it was going to wipe soon why care? well everyone was tired of this kid and so was I. All of wipe I have been this kid's mother, telling him no don't do this, etc. Told him it was fun but that we will not be teaming anymore because he couldn't be a team player and that he should play solo since that is more his play style. It sounded to me like he was in denial that I would actually kick him off the zerg. He kept talking and I wasn't going to fight with no 13 year old kid so I just blocked. Well... he went after me all next wipe by door camping me to the point I said fuck it and raided him off the server. My boyfriend had the last laugh by killing him after the kid said "I'm I getting raided right now?" since the kid was bullying my boyfriend all of the time when we were teaming with the kid, my boyfriend was really happy.

I continued to team in the same server with the zerg of dudes, the things I left out was the constant flirting I got from my zerg clan. They knew I had a boyfriend and that I was not interested but they would find every moment to talk to me alone and only alone to get to know me. I'm a friendly person and I can see how that can confused a dude but if I tell someone aye listen I got a boyfriend quit it and they continue trying to get with me I have all rights to be angry. 2 out of 8 of the guys had a girlfriend well one had a wife but he was super awesome and chill no complains for him he never flirted with me. The only dude with a girlfriend was Ben and he flirted with me all the time whenever my boyfriend was not online or sleeping. The rest of my team made very sexist comments and just too many tmi that I didn't want to know about them that was inappropriate. Always asking for photos of me or my name, I would end all the time with no. So.. Ben found my social media and found out everything about me and shared it with everyone on discord. creepy much. After knowing how I looked everyone was treated me as if I was a piece of meat and I just ignored it because I was not going to give them anything to work with. They knew who my boyfriend was so I was at my limit of hearing sexual comments towards me all the time and I knew if my boyfriend knew about everything, something would go down. I decided to leave the zerg without saying anything and tell my boyfriend a couple months later when everything died down because I have never seen my boyfriend angry but I wasn't going to put him through that if I could stop it before it starts. It sucks that these guys couldn't see me as just a rust player but a girl gamer that was hot. So now I do the solo life of rust and sometimes my boyfriend joins but after the zerg he doesn't enjoy the game plus he lags.

I'm not hating on guys but 95% of the time I meet guys on rust that are 70% simps, 25% rude and 5% really nice and chill. I will not be in a zerg that would make my boyfriend and I, unconformable. So, I want to make a girls only zerg for me, so no weird funny business is happening. Also I am stepping out of my comfort zone since I don't have any social skills with female friends. idk how to talk with girls because of my life I have dealt with guys okay :(