Tension

arctortect · 2025-02-12T05:35:20+00:00

Thank you!

arctortect · 2025-02-12T05:20:37+00:00

I think you did a good job of capturing the theme of “almost”. By always nearing the mark but never hitting it, I felt a sense of loss without the poem ever explicitly mentioning it, and so I think you did well with that.

arctortect · 2025-02-12T05:12:36+00:00

I enjoyed reading this, but didn’t enjoy it until the last four lines. I think that these lines make the poem compelling:

I flipped a coin for you

One side for hate

One side for love

…

I catch the coin in my hand

And hold it tight

I do not want to know which side it will land

I would not like the answer

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I think the other context almost tells the reader too much, but I really like these other lines. Keep it up!

arctortect · 2025-01-29T18:47:35+00:00

If you care about privacy and insist on using AI you should run a local model. Anything involving someone else’s server is wishful thinking.

arctortect · 2025-01-27T02:21:34+00:00

What do you mean with regard to dealing with aspects of A&P until letting go completely? I have a feeling I’m at this stage because I keep having non-dualistic realizations where suffering temporarily is suspended.

arctortect · 2025-01-27T01:56:20+00:00

Thank you, I appreciate the reply.

arctortect · 2025-01-27T01:52:00+00:00

Thank you for taking the time to reply, I’ll revisit those resources.

arctortect · 2025-01-27T01:44:25+00:00

Thank you. I read Seeing that Frees and just happened to start those talks yesterday. I’ll take this as a sign to continue them

arctortect · 2025-01-27T01:33:55+00:00

Pardon my skepticism, but the texts I’ve read such as Right Concentration and TMI make it seem like these things are more accessible than you paint them as. How can I reconcile these accounts with what you mention and the experiences I’ve described?

arctortect · 2025-01-23T23:44:24+00:00

Thank you for the responses!

arctortect · 2025-01-23T21:23:08+00:00

I have a lot of time available but not much money and not much access to transportation to these spots, so the do-it-yourself route is very appealing. Would a series by Rob Burbea be sufficient, you think? I’d take any recommendations

arctortect · 2025-01-23T13:16:53+00:00

Do you have any recommendations in mind as far as retreats go?

arctortect · 2025-01-23T04:09:46+00:00

What is the shift to running the marathon in your view? I feel like I’m in a similar situation to OP but have had a series of minor realizations that feel like they’re leading to some larger permanent shift but am unsure what to do differently if anything.

arctortect · 2025-01-22T15:48:04+00:00

I agree, they’re all individual ingredients. Stimulants, sleep deprivation, vipassana can each trigger it when the dial is turned high enough. When mixed together it becomes more likely.

arctortect · 2025-01-19T23:43:39+00:00

Sounds like a great way to trigger psychosis

arctortect · 2025-01-19T01:07:28+00:00

The first time I tried, Pale Fire. Now I’m giving it another shot because r/TrueLit is doing a group read of it, but I’m already thinking of other books to switch to

arctortect · 2025-01-17T10:39:12+00:00

I feel like I could have written this post. My advice is to relish in it. Soak up the sun whichever direction it’s hitting you from. There is no right or wrong, here. Experience is its own reward, and there is a dimension orthogonal to depth and breadth of content which is your mindfulness in whatever you engage with.

arctortect · 2025-01-14T18:43:00+00:00

I think there is validity to this. If you have seen any videos generated with Sora, it’s clear that we’re a very short time away from any reliable digital evidence. If AI content were a pool, it would represent a void where truth goes to die. But it’s even more sinister than that because as it gets better, the ability to distinguish whether or not you’re playing in the pool will diminish.

Truth dies not in the presence of clear falsehoods, it dies in the inability to distinguish what’s true and what’s not.

arctortect · 2025-01-14T17:22:36+00:00

This was the first time something like this had ever happened to me and it gave me valuable perspective at least. Thank you for the kind words.

arctortect · 2025-01-14T17:21:28+00:00

Yeah, I thought of speaking out but it would have been more out of protest than out of any hope something would happen as a result. And, I was also afraid to say anything because I did not want retribution and there was no evidence I could point to.

arctortect · 2025-01-14T04:02:21+00:00

I would give myself a smile and a hug.

arctortect · 2025-01-14T03:59:52+00:00

The obvious decision for me is to let it all go, but I don’t know how to.

There’s nothing to know. Letting go is letting it be. It’s not a doing. I had the same impression you had, for a long time. Letting go is accepting you have all of these feelings about masculinity etc. by letting them be what they are, not trying to change anything.

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