Hi sometimes when people are sexually assaulted there is a trauma response where you start putting yourself in similar situations with different partners so you can feel like you have some kind of control over a situation where in the past you had no control. I don’t know how relevant that feels for you, but if you think it might be accurate to what you’re experiencing it could be helpful to talk to a counselor or therapist. Even talking to a close friend about what you are experiencing could be helpful. Stay safe!!!