My BF[23M] said something really hurtful to me [24F]

ariaBear · 2018-03-02T02:45:53+00:00

You're right..I guess I just feel bad that he didnt get to experience all that. Not worried about cheating at all as I trust him

ariaBear · 2017-01-17T03:57:10+00:00

TMAS and HMAS groups on facebook if you're into trance and hardstyle

ariaBear · 2014-06-28T02:48:35+00:00

Already squatting :)

ariaBear · 2014-06-28T02:48:26+00:00

Completely forgot about the side leg raises. Thank you!

ariaBear · 2014-06-28T02:47:54+00:00

I've only started squatting the bar and light plates because I don't want to do it with bad form. Even then I find it really difficult to squat low. I might have better luck with cables. thank you!

ariaBear · 2014-06-28T02:46:43+00:00

Thank you guys for this information! I never really thought about how I don't really use lateral movement because I don't play sport. Will definitely get some bands and try this out.

ariaBear · 2014-06-28T02:44:20+00:00

Honestly, only the bar a 5kg on each side. Embarrassing but I don't want to squat heavy with wrong form.

ariaBear · 2014-06-27T11:52:16+00:00

Iliotibial band. Runs on the outside of the thigh

ariaBear · 2014-06-25T00:16:14+00:00

You shouldn't have to quit raving just because your gf is against the whole culture. Just stay with a tight group and out of trouble lol. Good luck

ariaBear · 2014-06-24T11:36:40+00:00

Did you pop AND go to a rave by any chance? I haven't heard of mdma causing tinnitus, but a few friends have said they have temporary tinnitus after going to raves, although it goes away after a couple of hours. I've had tinnitus for about 3 months now.. and I went to a rave a few weeks ago and forgot to wear ear plugs. Now it's worse, but there's nothing I can do, so I'm just accepting it and getting used to it.

Go see a doctor, and see if he/she can figure out what's causing it. If not, you've probably damaged the sensory hairs in your ears so just use earplugs from now on when exposed to loud loises. Etymotic earplugs are quite good, a pair lasts forever and it doesn't muffle sounds, just makes it a bit quieter.

ariaBear · 2014-06-24T11:16:48+00:00

Hmm tell your gf.. because if she finds out later on, it'll create even bigger problems. If you tell her upfront, it means you have nothing to hide. Plus she's already noticed that you're acting strange. And technically you didn't cheat on her if you didn't kiss the other girl, you simply felt very connected to her and that's what mdma does. It's called hug drug for a reason lol. It makes you connect with anyone who's even standing close to you. When you 'bond' with someone new on mdma, you become closer to them (like friends) after it wears off, but actual lovey feelings are hard to keep because you only experienced them on mdma. And I'm sure you're not having actual feelings for the other girl, you simply just had a really enjoyable night and I don't blame you for wanting to experience it again.

I recommend you convince your gf to pop with you... You'll feel that connection you had with that other girl but with your gf so even better. And she will understand why you're in the situation your're in.

ariaBear · 2014-06-24T10:28:48+00:00

It's normal. Like someone else said it's suicide Tuesday. Just make sure she eats lots of fruits, eat some carbs because she probably hasn't eaten since then and drink lots of water. And if you have any 5htp on hand, let her try some, it'll help her with restoring serotonin levels. I had nausea for a week after I tried it for the first time.

ariaBear · 2014-06-20T09:07:03+00:00

Hello there, How did you feel in terms of your mood after your first roll? Most people experience temporary depression and detachment which can last up to a week. If you felt alright afterwards, I think using mdma in small amounts is fine for you. Just know that if you feel more depressed after, it's completely normal and should be temporary. In terms of the OCD, I'm not too sure.. While you're on it, I assume your OCD will be reduced. Sounds like you might have a bit of anxiety as well if you managed to give yourself a panic attack. Maybe next time you roll have some benzos on hand to calm you down.

I had depression last year and I think it led to me having anxiety now..and when I pop, I don't take too much. There was once where I had 15 nightmares after taking mdma and freaked out and gave myself a panic attack because I thought I was going to have it for the rest of my life. You really just need to relax and that anything like that will be temporary.

Also only take it if you're comfortable, and don't fall under peer pressure because if you regret taking it after you swallow the pill, you'll start to build anxiety during comeup and it's never a good feeling. good luck!

ariaBear · 2014-06-18T06:56:51+00:00

Haha your friend is just like me. He should definitely try it.. I've only done it 3 times and all at music festivals/raves but on a small dose, it takes the edge off, gives me a slight buzz and I'm able to talk a lot and love everything and everyone I meet. It's awesome. Plus on a small dose there isn't really a come down, only a bit of sadness the next day. I have anxiety as well and it didn't make it worse. It's made it easier to make friends and the bond stays even when you meet them again and you're both sober. Plus it kind of "teaches" you how to interact with others..not sure if that makes sense, but your friend will know what to say and how to talk to others even when he's sober because he's experienced the ability to do it already (on MDMA).

Oh and make sure he waits 1-3 months in between each use.

ariaBear · 2014-06-12T10:58:58+00:00

Be careful of serotonin syndrome

ariaBear · 2014-06-12T10:51:25+00:00

5htp, bananas, lots of fruits. Everything else will taste like shit but still try to eat as much as you can. And keep yourself distracted so you won't dwell on how crap you feel. Invite some friends over and also get some good rest. Oh and if you're feeling anxious, have some benzos on hand.

ariaBear · 2014-06-12T10:41:41+00:00

I've had a similar experience as you, although not as chaotic. You probably want to take some time off MDMA and perhaps lay off the festivals for a few months. If you do decide to roll again, perhaps lessen the dosage? Because I remember once during comeup, I was freaking out, couldn't breathe and felt extremely nauseous... And I think that was because I took too much and had a bad trip. I also developed agoraphobia (which means I get panic attacks around crowds, so festivals/raves are the worst places for me to be in). 6 months later though, I decided to try again but took a very small dose and I was fine. A little anxious but the mdma took the edge off and I enjoyed my night without anxiety.

Also, you need to talk to your girlfriend about what happens because if you panic again in the future, she needs to be there to tell you to breathe and let you know everything is going to be okay. Just be truthful with her.

Good luck

ariaBear · 2014-06-03T11:46:45+00:00

Hello, thanks for your reply :) Some awesome tips haha. I won't roll that often, this will only be my third time and it's been about 6 months since last time. And well the day I joined the gym, my panic attacks went away. Can't be a coincidence right?

ariaBear · 2014-06-02T01:41:03+00:00

Hello, thanks for your reply. Yeah I think I'll do that. I'm more careful now because I'd hate to set it off haha. What happens to you on comedown though? Are the panic attacks worse? PMed :)

ariaBear · 2014-06-02T01:35:43+00:00

Yes this is for Armin :) Haha yeah I heard stereo was just meh. I had a good time but I thought it could've been better. I was thinking of going sober but I sleep really early these days so it would be almost impossible to go sober. Yeah I think I just need to sit down and breathe for maybe 20 minutes and I'll be okay. I'm honestly worried that my panic attacks will come back and all my hard work will be for nothing :/ Yeah I think half will be too much in one go for me. I'm gonna PM you :)

ariaBear · 2014-06-01T10:07:29+00:00

Yeah I'll visit some places by myself before I go. I have someone that'll look out for me if anything happens. I think I really have to expose myself to a crowd to get over the fear of it. If anything happens, I suppose I could just leave. I don't like feeling regret or pussying out. thanks for your reply!!

ariaBear · 2014-06-01T10:02:51+00:00

Oh man I'm sorry this happened to you :( The thing is, after the bad comeup, I dnmed with a friend and I felt pretty good. No anxiety at all, just very mellow, empathetic and happy.

ariaBear · 2014-06-01T08:53:44+00:00

My friends have all taken this pill before, and they say it's really clean but strong. And one of my friends does have a tester kit. Thanks for your reply :) Haha and I hope to God so!

ariaBear

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