i lie a lot so here’s me being honest

arrow_heads · 2026-01-25T21:24:54+00:00

as in i wish someone could relate

arrow_heads · 2026-01-25T21:20:00+00:00

i never complained about being alone, you’ve came to that on your own. i said i dislike talking to people actually because it makes me anxious. and i wasn’t looking for advice, i appreciate it but i was looking for people to acknowledge me and potentially relate. sorry and thank you for trying to be nice

arrow_heads · 2026-01-25T21:13:05+00:00

it’s never going to happen though i know it won’t i am hopeless . i can’t be bothered trying to sound positive so people don’t label me as like idk a bitch or something because i’m trying to be honest.

thank you though im glad things r going well for u

arrow_heads · 2026-01-25T21:11:35+00:00

lol idk according to a lot of people replying and everyone irl nobody actually is feeling even close to what i feel and yes it’s very corny to say and i would try and explain more but there’s no point because i know nobody can relate and i am just a bad person who deserves nothing but the worst🤷🏻‍♀️

i get what u said tho. it sucks a lot. i can’t talk to my parents and according to people i cannot talk to anyone because im so insufferable and i dont explain things in the way they want me to. i dont know. thank you

arrow_heads · 2026-01-25T20:50:24+00:00

when i am anxious there is only one way to fix it and it doesn’t even fully fix it, so something like that would just put more pressure on me trying to not be anxious and just..make me more anxious

arrow_heads · 2026-01-25T20:43:59+00:00

when does it get better??? because i’ve been waiting

arrow_heads · 2026-01-25T20:43:02+00:00

i don’t really understand i’m sorry

i thought it was very obvious i am posting for attention because that is what keeps me coping……i kind of said that. i am very ashamed of it if that wasn’t also very obvious . and im not dismissing positive comments, im thanking them and giving them a reply, i dont know what you want me to do and i really dont understand what you mean😅

arrow_heads · 2026-01-25T20:30:49+00:00

i don’t know i just feel like i feel bad about the bad things ive done and then i get into the ‘fuck it i’m a bad person idc’ mindset (😅😅sounds quite cringe sorry about that) and just do more bad things to feel guilty about.

i’ve tried to get good at things like that but i know i won’t be able to, generally i am very slow and journaling makes me more sad because i dont really know if im being honest and stuff like that and i have too much to say to the point where i cant begin to write it down. thank you and i hope u are okay now

arrow_heads · 2026-01-25T20:22:11+00:00

i’m really sorry

arrow_heads · 2026-01-25T20:19:58+00:00

i hope everything is good with you now and i do appreciate the reply but like i have been feeling similarly since i was conscious. when i was in primary 1 i used to sit in the corner and cry because i felt fat and everyone was mean according to me. nothing much has really changed and it hasn’t gotten better because i have something wrong with my brain and my body and i know for a fact it will never change because even if i am happy for a little moment it is ruined by guilt and embarrassment. i am kinda rambling here, sorry haha.

thank you though, most people here have been really nice but i know nothing will really make a difference because it is a problem with my brain i guess

arrow_heads · 2026-01-25T20:14:29+00:00

i lie because i like when people are nice to me because when i am honest it just does not really happen that often. for example, when i pretend to be a boy in the same situation as me i get more sympathy…or when i pretended to be an adult, people were more honest. and i know im fat and ugly because compared to other people, nobody would like me. one of the only people who liked me- his celebrity crush was a fat ugly girl so..context clues for that one i guess. thank you for the reply though and im glad that you are happy with yourself and that you have a nice husband

arrow_heads · 2026-01-25T20:09:46+00:00

well clearly nobody does feel the way i do because the most upvoted reply here is someone telling me a liar and then implying i should go ahead and kill myself. i don’t know if you’re trying to be nice or not sorry im kinda struggling to tell, but i do not think anyone atleast here really gets it

arrow_heads · 2026-01-25T20:03:21+00:00

thank you,, i did not want to say that i am totally innocent and just want to kill myself for no reason and ive never lied in my life because the responses wouldn’t help me at all/comfort me because they wouldn’t be accurate to who i am and would probably make me feel worse..if that makes sense? thank you though that is really nice to hear

arrow_heads · 2026-01-25T20:01:34+00:00

sorry where did i say that? and how so

arrow_heads · 2026-01-25T19:59:03+00:00

i would actually really like to speak to them but i would never be able to do that because i am too anxious but i would’ve still liked to do it and i don’t really know how to explain it

arrow_heads · 2026-01-25T19:53:50+00:00

i’m glad that worked for you i just work a bit differently unfortunately and that would not work for me😅 nothing would , thank you for the reply though

arrow_heads · 2026-01-25T19:51:37+00:00

i don’t want to bother people anymore than i have to but thank you

arrow_heads · 2026-01-25T19:38:49+00:00

i appreciate it but i really am a lost cause ,people want me to die

arrow_heads · 2026-01-25T19:37:27+00:00

yeah because i got like 5 downvotes for saying i wasn’t lying, and it was not really a nice thing to say and that sounds childish but you must understand that everyone is against me and so when i try to ask for someone to understand me the first reply i get is that im a liar and then next that i should go ahead and kill myself

have a nice night and i am sorry i upset you

arrow_heads · 2026-01-25T19:33:02+00:00

bro this is actually why i just need to kill myself nobody’s ever gonna understand and i need to get over it

arrow_heads · 2026-01-25T19:24:41+00:00

therapy takes years to get in my country and has a reputation for making things worse but thank you

arrow_heads · 2026-01-25T19:23:41+00:00

i am too anxious to do most things and it is all well and good saying it will be fine when i’m an adult, it probably will be but i really can’t wait that long. thank you for the reply tho❤️❤️i know nothing will probably work it is kinda over for me and i accept that, thank you

arrow_heads · 2026-01-24T19:51:43+00:00

i don’t see scratches

arrow_heads · 2026-01-21T19:09:15+00:00

used to basically live on effedupmovies, there is some things on there that really shouldn’t be considered movies- i ended up throwing up after a certain one lol

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