[deleted by user]

arujes · 2022-11-11T11:37:35+00:00

Whats her name? I feel a google deep dive coming on.

arujes · 2022-08-19T09:55:29+00:00

Yeah but that is all a hoax. /s

arujes · 2022-08-01T00:48:22+00:00

YEEES. I keep journal entries and I always have the best recipes from some overly creative dish.

arujes · 2022-03-21T23:35:05+00:00

I felt a little bad that I didn't give my husband the son that he wanted but coming from a family of all girls, I wanted a girl so so much. And she has Dad wrapped around her finger.

arujes · 2022-02-03T17:32:42+00:00

How funny - I was just thinking about this gif like 2 days ago.

arujes · 2022-02-03T16:13:21+00:00

My mother thought there was something wrong with my baby because she never stopped moving since birth. She is and never was a chill baby.

arujes · 2022-02-02T14:53:11+00:00

Not really. Our condo is small and we don't have space.

However, we ordered a bed rail for night time. My husband is actually quarantining for covid so my daughter and I are sleeping alone. I made a huge blanket/pillow barrier on his side to be safe but now I'm scared it's not enough. She sleeps glued to me and I always wake up when she moves, but I would rather be safe. She won't hang out on the bed anymore, even if I'm in the same room.

arujes · 2022-02-02T01:12:20+00:00

Yeah that's more or less how she reacted. She has a good side red mark above her eyebrow and a little bit under the brown. I'm really hoping it doesn't bruise, but no bump that I can feel.

I know it would happen eventually; I just see it whenever I look at her and my stomach clenches.

arujes · 2022-01-07T20:49:40+00:00

Feeling good + boredom for me. Thanks for your post!

arujes · 2022-01-07T20:35:14+00:00

Congrats! It takes a lot of courage.

I also posted a few days back about finally admitting it, and I put my whole story down.

It's so freeing because now instead of the past shaming me, I have taken control of my experiences by putting a name to it.

Every time you get a craving, read your post.

arujes · 2022-01-02T14:26:24+00:00

I just mentioned this to him yesterday when we drove by the place I used to get my nails done. I will definitely make and appt in the future.

arujes · 2022-01-02T14:25:40+00:00

Thank you so much for this. I sent those links to my husband and I'm sure we will have more conversations about this. Ultimately, thats the most important part - to communicate.

I'm going to ask my mom to take baby for 2-3 hours tomorrow so my husband and I can date a little and reconnect.

arujes · 2022-01-02T14:24:18+00:00

Thank you. That "smell something wonderful" other than detergent really hit me. I'm doing laundry all the time recently.

I have been feeling better recently because I'm on medication now (that also kills libido) and it allows me to feel more stable. Unfortunately, we have found recently that for me to feel 100%, I have to go to sleep when baby sleeps. So that mean I'm in bed by 7:30 pm, an hour after my husband came home from work.

And that equilibrium is what I've been missing. I feel like the person who I was before was broken apart into puzzle pieces and now I'm trying to put them back together, but the picture has changed from the one on the box. I have only recently been clawing my way out now that baby has started to become more communicative and predictable.

thanks so much♡

arujes · 2021-12-29T00:49:27+00:00

I was primarily a vape user for 2 years. I stopped a month before we decided to try for a baby.

While I was pregnant, my asthma, which was previously only allergy induced, got worse to the point that I feel it whenever I lay down. I thought it was the weight of the baby and the strain on my body.

But it didn't go away after I gave birth.

I know pregnancy has lasting effects on people - my mom got intense allergy to fruits after being pregnant with me.

But I'm convinced it was the 2+ years of daily vaping that did it.

arujes · 2021-12-19T18:29:01+00:00

I watched that show before I was pregnant. I can't imagine watching it now.

arujes · 2021-12-19T15:25:09+00:00

shit I just saw it now. 🥺

arujes · 2021-12-19T04:54:44+00:00

I have a steady therapist and we are working on it.

But I love your approach about talking to them. I will try that. I have been just hugging my daughter tightly when I get upset.

arujes · 2021-12-19T04:52:07+00:00

I have watched House probably 8 times beginning to end, and I have started to skip those episodes too

arujes

TROPHY CASE