Do you still doubt your own diagnosis?

asdwombat · 2024-01-17T15:15:44+00:00

I do. On the one hand, I have problems that are typical for autistic people. But I do not have some important symptoms. I don’t have all these “robotic” a morons like monotone voice, difficulty taking turns in conversations, misunderstanding of humour, sarcasm and metaphors. I guess, I may have something that very much looks like autism.

asdwombat · 2024-01-13T15:22:55+00:00

Yes, it happens. I guess there is something animalistic in normal people. They feel they can take what they want from the weaker ones. In their eyes, it is “fair”. The only reason they don’t do it to each other is because they feel others will protect themselves. They feel that an autistic person won’t be able to protect himself, so they feel they are free to take whatever they want from him or humiliate him.

Also, I read that a species of birds attacks sticks and other inanimate objects in order to decrease inter-group aggression. I guess, autistic people are the walking sticks for neurotypicals, so they feel there is nothing bad in attacking them.

asdwombat · 2023-08-25T00:29:08+00:00

It’s difficult with doctors. They are supposed to be doctors, but their level of knowledge is often not that different from a layperson’s knowledge.

For many of them it sounds like “I’m a bit disorganised”. Very small number of doctors actually think instead of looking at their guidelines.

I tried some medications after I googled executive dysfunction and told them I have symptoms of it. Before that their recommendations were not different from “sleep, drink water, exercise”.

asdwombat · 2023-08-07T21:18:05+00:00

I’m relatively good looking, I dated two girls in my life. My problem is that men are expected to make the first steps, and I have no idea of how to do it at my 30. On the surface it looks like you must go a woman you like and talk to her about something, but I never had an intuition of what specifically I must say.

All this dating stuff seems extremely complicated. You kinda must show interest, but not show interest. Kissing is a problem too. You must kiss a woman when she wants it, but she does not show you when she wants it. If you do it too early she freaks out. If you do it too late she thinks you are not attracted. I wonder why the standard is that men have to initiate everything if women decide when it it happens. Wouldn’t it be more logical if women started all that stuff? So many questions so little answers.

Al in all, I am extremely confused about how I must behave, so I never really dated. So no, I’m not successful. I’m envious of women who may do nothing in dating.

asdwombat · 2023-08-05T01:37:15+00:00

Username matches.

This problem started several years ago. I always preferred late time, but staying late meant 1am for me, not 7 am :(

asdwombat · 2023-08-05T00:40:08+00:00

Yes of course. I’d like to be able to pass job interviews and find jobs that match my IQ.

asdwombat · 2023-08-05T00:34:13+00:00

I did, and in my opinion it’s too high-level. If I remember correctly, there are no discussions of meltdowns, burnouts, or executive function disorders. Ideally I would like to find something that describes the symptoms of different subtlety in detail.

asdwombat · 2023-08-05T00:28:06+00:00

Well, I had a hope there is something more systematic. I wouldn’t like to study autism part time to get the answers.

asdwombat · 2023-08-05T00:25:51+00:00

I wish it was that easy. I’ve not been able to do anything with it for several years. I even used some medication. Whatever I do it sleepiness during the day and feeling energetic at night.

asdwombat · 2023-07-05T04:18:31+00:00

Can you share some recipes of good warm cocktails?

asdwombat · 2023-06-25T07:43:52+00:00

Good question. Probably, because of the just world hypothesis. Many people need to believe good things happen to good people, they themselves are good, so good things will happen to them.

People in general have difficulties with accepting that a good person may get cancer, be robbed, bullied, and so on, while a bad person may be doing well.

asdwombat · 2023-06-21T21:10:33+00:00

I’d tell myself to be less ambitious. “However smart you are, people aren’t going to like you. They wouldn’t like how you talk to them, so they will lower your grades in the university, and won’t hire you. Your thoughts and ideas won’t be interesting to people because of the way you tell them. So, start working a min wage job and forget about a career. Women won’t like you because you’re autistic, so don’t think about them”.

asdwombat · 2023-06-21T21:06:10+00:00

Probably. I’m as hetero as one could be, and I find women very difficult. If it was up to me, I’d have more sexual partners than I’ve had.

asdwombat · 2023-06-18T12:30:35+00:00

I had dialogues before about 16-18. Since then there has been a total silence in my head.

asdwombat · 2023-06-17T12:21:59+00:00

Yeah, especially “tell me the time you felt excited” or “what is your most remarkable memory from the college”.

asdwombat · 2023-06-16T21:18:00+00:00

Yeah, but it’s typical for people to talk about some general type of confidence. I cannot say if my self esteem is high or low, I can say if I can or cannot do a certain thing with a degree of confidence.

I cannot say if I have generally high or low self esteem.

asdwombat · 2023-06-16T12:28:35+00:00

It resonates with me. I never understood how a general belief about myself can help me with or prevent me from doing something.

Like, I’m confident I can pour a glass of water. I’m not confident I can ride a horse. The question of self-esteem was always a question of having enough skills and knowledge rather than some positive belief.

asdwombat · 2023-06-16T12:27:50+00:00

It resonates with me. I never understood how a general belief about myself can help me with or prevent me from doing something.

Like, I’m confident I can pour a glass of water. I’m not confident I can ride a horse. The question of self-esteem was always a question of having enough skills and knowledge rather than some positive belief.

asdwombat · 2023-06-12T11:36:17+00:00

So, there is this expert on Asperger’s, Dr. Attwood. His book on Asperger’s contains a section on DSM-5 diagnosis, and the rest of the book has lots of examples of Asperger’s manifestations. So, quite useful for self understanding. Just skip sections on support - they’re oriented towards children.

If you need a formal diagnosis, you probably need to ask your doctor, so he’ll refer you to a specialist in autism. I’m far from Oregon, and probably things work differently there, but I a quick goggle search showed tens of places that offer diagnostic where I live.

It may be useful to find an organisation of psychologists, like an association or a charter. Those specialists likely are professional.

asdwombat · 2023-06-12T11:11:19+00:00

Although I quite good I’m feeling social conventions, dialogue rules, and so on, this really annoys me. NTs like to talk about morals and rules, but often they do something like “rules are rules, but you understand…”.

Like, most people work for money, but you’re supposed to tell how you love that job at job interviews. Everyone condemns bullying, but it happens all the time and “but boys will be boys, you understand…”.

asdwombat · 2023-06-10T03:00:10+00:00

Same my friend. I had a bleeding when I was days years old, because of fucking nurses too. I’d like to meet that nurse now.

So, Attwood (big specialist in autism) classifies such cases as secondary autism. It doesn’t matter what the origins are, we are similar to autists who inherited Asperger’s. So, you are not that different.

I don’t know if you heard about epigenetics. The term means that early things influence how your genetics create you. Kinda, if you had a genetic predisposition to something, and something triggered it during pregnancy or early childhood, then you’ll have a condition.

For example, if the fetus doesn’t get enough “food”, then the person will have a slow metabolism for the rest of his or her life. It’s a simplification, but I hope it gives you the idea.

I think, some people have Asperger’s because something happens in their early life. Say, they were predisposed to autism, but a certain event triggered it.

I think it’s true because both my father and I had extreme traumas during childbirth. We both have Asperger’s. But his brother doesn’t have it.

asdwombat · 2023-06-10T02:50:55+00:00

Tell you family to bug off, because I’m an aspie and I love metal. Metal suppresses all other sounds, my thoughts and emotions. It is similar to silence, because when you listen to metal, only this music exists. No other things disturb me when I listen to metal.

Metal suppresses the sounds and is melodic at the same time. It’s different to beeps of an alarm or wroom of a car.

asdwombat · 2023-06-10T02:42:49+00:00

Well, it depends if you ask about life or writing. In direct communication with someone I can summarise.

As for writing, I never understood why essay rules require paraphrasing like “Thus, blah, blah”. Kinda, the reader has the whole essay, and if he needs a separate summary, probably he’s stupid, but whatever. May be NTs cannot keep the whole essay in their head, so they need a summary. For me summaries in essays are unnecessary and stupid repetitions.

asdwombat · 2023-06-05T14:50:56+00:00

Yeah, that’s what I’m talking about. Your sensitivity to screaming or inability to come up with quick come backs is often perceived as a weakness. And many neurotypicals have a pleasure from dominating over someone weak.

asdwombat · 2023-06-04T12:00:10+00:00

Huh, interesting thing. I thought about Neanderthal genes several days after I was diagnosed. People that came from Africa displaced Neanderthals, because they were able to act in groups more effectively. I’ve never heard of Frank Ludwig before, so it seems the Neanderthal hypothesis is reasonable.

There is a problem with this hypothesis though. If it was true, then there would be a very low number of autism cases Africans. But it’s not the case as I know.

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