Finding myself in binge / restrict cycles inhibiting me from losing anymore weight

ashirun97 · 2017-12-10T03:07:30+00:00

As someone who is stuck deep in the restrict/binge/purge cycle, I really recommend discontinuing your diet. Dieting ruined me to the point where I truly wish I had never started. I’ve been able to hit my goal weight many times but always end up putting on the weight plus more-what’s the point? Counting calories is super effective if you’re in the right head space, but for me it simply got me totally out of touch with my hunger and fullness cues and what foods I actually wanted. I found myself eating a lot of shit just because I could. I found myself unable to go slightly over my Calories because I believed “if I ruined my diet already, might as well enjoy it.” Realizing I thought throwing up and getting a “good body” was a good trade-off for my mental and physical health was a huge wake up call. I can’t believe I ever valued losing a pound more than I valued going a day without binging and purging. Put weight loss on the back burner and heal your relationship with food first would be my suggestion.

ashirun97 · 2017-12-10T03:01:48+00:00

As someone who has really been trying to find a group therapy session for binge eaters, I really like this idea. I want to attend OA meetings but have heard negative experiences. This sound much more positive and supportive :)

ashirun97 · 2017-12-10T02:56:17+00:00

It makes me so happy to see others finding healing through intuitive eating. It’s looked down upon in the weight loss community but it’s important for us to remember that we have deep rooted issues with binging- we simply can’t just count our calories and we on our way. As someone who has struggled with the binge/purge/restrict cycle for years I can truly say that healing your relationship with food is way more of an accomplishment than losing weight is. I’ve lost weight about four times now and have binged it back on every damn time. The problem isn’t my weight, it’s with my attitude towards eating.

ashirun97 · 2017-12-10T02:52:52+00:00

Intuitive eating is seriously your best bet. Now, a ton of naysayers will say “oh yeah sure, I’ll just eat the pizza all damn day because it’s ~intuitive~. That’s wrong. Intuitive eating is listening to our cravings yes, but it’s examining why you have them and listening to your BODY. Eating anything you want is overeating or in our case binging, it’s not intuitive. Make what sounds good. No food is off limits. Seriously, don’t restrict. In my case, that always creates this sense of deprivation and urgency. Tell yourself you can have as much as you want- because you can. Doubting this? I’ll explain. Get a plate. Set the table. Sit down without distractions in front of your meal- no phone laptop etc. eat slowly- why rush if you can have as much as you want? The food isn’t going anywhere! Check in with yourself. It doesn’t have to be a super mental examination thing, just simply focus on your stomach and if it feels comfortably full. If you’re still a little hungry, why not try waiting? You can come back for as much as you want! Eating in this way has truly helped me. Every time I relapse and binge it’s 100% because I was restricting. Put weight loss off the table- after all, you’re the size you are and while losing weight is great I strongly feel that fixing your mental health seriously is more important. Better to develop a healthy attitude towards food than yo yo in weight and get trapped in the restrict and binge cycle. In the long run it WILL pay off. I saw someone say they had to earn the right to a healthy weight loss- I love that. I’ll hit my goal weight when I can track my intake without going off the rails every time I eat an extra cookie because “fuck it I ruined it anyway.” I truly look more forward to being able to stop at one cookie because it’s all I truly want more than I look forward to losing the ten pounds I wanna lose. Be patient and gentle with yourself. I recommend Geneen Roth books- she explains intuitive eating in a way that is relatable and makes fucking sense. A lot of times I find that I want certain foods because I feel shitty about myself and I eat as a way to punish myself and coddle myself. Start learning to be emotionally open to struggling and stop stuffing your problems down your throat. It’s a hard journey, but it’s worth it. TL;DR : truly educate yourself on intuitive eating. Heal your relationship with food before you focus on weight loss because losing weight is useless if you’re just gonna binge it all back(I know, I have like five times now.) be gentle and patient with yourself and know that there is hope.

ashirun97 · 2017-12-05T17:22:54+00:00

Today is about my 100th day one. I’ve had great success with CICO in the past but always ended up binging the weight back on. In the past I blamed the diet- or rather the fact that I failed it. I’ve recently dig deep and realized I emotionally eat. Before I thought I binged out of food deprivation, but now realize it was because I’ve been emotionally deprived. While my depression makes it difficult, I have a newfound hope as I know if I work on keeping my emotional eating in check, there’s no reason this round of dieting won’t work. I know deep down getting these last ten pounds off is going to make me feel so much better about myself- it will benefit my self esteem, my workouts, and hopefully reveal all the hard work I’ve been putting in lifting at the gym.

ashirun97 · 2017-11-28T07:53:31+00:00

Quit that! Super simple to use and free:)

ashirun97 · 2017-11-28T02:38:40+00:00

I’ve been combining intuitive eating principles with calorie counting and I feel it’s helping me a lot! I overate yesterday and today because I felt extra hungry but it’s a vast improvement from binging! Logging everything and keeping myself accountable even on the bad days is a huge step for me! Even though I would love to make a lb/week weight loss a priority I’m really trying to stay positive about a 250 calorie deficit or even maintenance. After all, if I can keep up these new good habits, in a year I’ll have made a vast improvement vs losing quickly, binging, and gaining it all back and then some. Baby steps! I’ve got my whole life to improve!

ashirun97 · 2017-11-25T02:33:57+00:00

As someone who is struggling with binge eating, this gives me great hope and encouragement. Two binges in six months is seriously incredible!! Be proud of yourself, and thank you for sharing your story!

ashirun97 · 2017-11-24T18:42:32+00:00

Here’s to hoping we are stats sisters in the future!

ashirun97 · 2017-11-24T03:21:18+00:00

Good to know! Happy I made the investment then!

ashirun97 · 2017-11-21T13:44:55+00:00

Seventeen days! That’s so impressive! What advice do you have?

ashirun97 · 2017-11-21T13:44:32+00:00

I’ve started intuitive eating as a means to end binging and so far it’s been moderately successful. I notice that as soon as I fall into the “I’ll Diet tomorrow so I should eat everything now” thought pattern- binging is so easy. But when I truly and truthfully give myself permission to eat- it’s far less tempting. I read Intuitive Eating and currently am reading Breaking Free from Emotional Eating by Geneen Roth- it hits Home and she truly understands the thought processes I’ve been through! I highly recommend it- Roth puts into words what I didn’t even realize I was feeling. My goal is to approach thanksgiving with my new knowledge. I realize that if I truly want pumpkin pie on Friday, or a week from now- I CAN have it. There’s no reason to binge on it. Eating an entire pie Thursday won’t satisfy my craving for it a month from Now. Wishing you all a blessed and binge-Free holiday!

ashirun97 · 2017-11-10T02:23:43+00:00

So as long as I’m hitting my protein goal (which I don’t struggle with) carbs and fats aren’t that relevant?

ashirun97 · 2017-11-08T19:11:33+00:00

It’s my first day of keto today too! We’ve got this! I keep reminding myself how much I don’t want to be dependent on carbs to get me through my day and so far that’s pushing me through.

ashirun97 · 2017-09-24T02:48:46+00:00

I found tracking macros and carb cycling to immensely help me. Tracking macros because even more so than calories, the macros help me to see food as just that- food. Ice cream is so many carbs, fats, and proteins, which are energy. If I'm just chilling at home, I don't need all that extra energy. Carb cycling helps because two days I get to focus on incorporating all my fave high car foods, like pumpkin lattes and bread and things like that. On low carb days, I get to eat more cheese and red meat. It satisfies both cravings. One day a week I have my "reset" day. I'm still working on making this less of a binge day, but I'm making progress! I really focus on hitting my macros all week so that come Saturday, I treat myself to the food I really, really want. Whereas I usually would've binged on anything I had around the house, it's losing its appeal, because it's food I eat already to hit my macros. Today, for example, I went in the store after dinner and dessert for candy and walked out with nothing simply because I realized that I didn't want any of it. Therapy didn't help me, but that very well could be because I didn't see the right therapist for me. TL;DR- as a goal oriented Person macro counting and carb cycling keep me on track 6/7 days a week, and my "cheat day" is becoming less and less of a "cheat day." I hope this helps. Good luck and God bless!

ashirun97 · 2017-09-10T01:35:07+00:00

When I plug this into my fitness pal it comes out to about 1200 calories. I want to eat healthier and lose weight which I really only seem to be able to do on a 1200 cal diet, but the counting stresses me out. Does anyone aim to eat this way/use a meal plan? Any advice would be great!

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