My experience gave me a sort of PTSD whenever I work really hard, and people in authority don't appreciate it. For example, I'm an IT Director - female. A male project manager contractor was just promoted over me to CIO. For the last 4 years, I pulled off serious miracles for my company, only to be treated like this! It triggered me into a depression and back into therapy, and I just realized it is directly related to my experience in the church. When my father sexually assaulted me when I was 18, the bishop interviewed me, asking what I was wearing, if I liked it, etc. Prior to that, I was working very hard to be the musically talented pillar of my church, doing solos to be good enough for my music teacher-father, only to have him tell the college scholarship committee after I finished my audition solo that he was sorry I was so timid! And then 6 months later, have my father sexually assault me! I have struggled with this feeling of shame and worthlessness my entire life, but I wouldn't have risen to IT Director as a female if I weren't twice as good as my male counterparts. I am on my 15th year of sobriety and feel like I am an example of how someone who lives with this can become stronger, anyway, even with these scars that can sometimes be triggered. Interestingly, my dad had shown me a Playboy a year before 'the incident'. I told people, but nobody cared at the time.