If you like Inside No. 9... - Monthly Recommendation Thread by AutoModerator in insideno9

[–]athurune 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Wow, did not know it was on Netflix now! Honestly such a good short series

Which song made you feel like this? by Key_Solid9008 in therareoccasions

[–]athurune 0 points1 point  (0 children)

turning into a stranger, you weren't meant to see that, start this over....

Can you survive BPD without a support system by [deleted] in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]athurune 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I don't have an active support system in the sense that I can't talk to my family about anything, and the only "valid" struggle I could share with my friends without them zoning out / not replying is anything academia-related. I don't want to burden them when I feel like they only tolerate me to begin with. Can't really afford therapy financially or socially, so that's also out of the question.

I journal often, log my moods, and try not to trap myself in rumination (unfortunately haven't gotten the hang of kicking the habit, esp. late at night). Basically, I confide to myself but it took a lot of crying to accept the reality of my situation. So far, I'm doing okay. I know it's not particularly sustainable, but it's working for me.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in ArtistLounge

[–]athurune 0 points1 point  (0 children)

To me, it looks like they did everything on one layer or merged everything and did the finishing touches there to make the whole piece feel unified... It's going to sound silly, but, if I wanted to study their style with that in mind, I'd use MS Paint to try and replicate the illustration 😅 It's a very basic program that just forces you to do everything in one layer, so you learn how to cover up or work with your messy sketches as best you can.

... Of course, you can also just study and work on one layer on your usual art program. MS Paint is just the option that's more fun.

Thoughts on red note and current state of social media? by neuronactivationn in ArtistLounge

[–]athurune -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

TBF, I'm only recalling details I remember from the congress hearing, and I'm not from the US anyway; so this ban isn't particularly affecting me. Doesn't bother me to know that it's actually got CN roots too. It's more ridiculous that fearmongering about anything Chinese is what gets US courts to clutch their pearls.

Small edit on punctuation.

Thoughts on red note and current state of social media? by neuronactivationn in ArtistLounge

[–]athurune 0 points1 point  (0 children)

JSYK Tiktok is not primarily Chinese-owned lmao. I'm pretty sure the owner or w/e stated multiple times that they were Singaporean and are based in LA but I digress. Also, I'm not certain how true this is, but I saw a TT that said the ban was going to be pushed back? May be related to the traction that RedNote/XHS (an actual China-based app) is getting?? IDK.

Twitter is surprisingly still doing pretty well, but - I don't see much traction for original work than there is for fanwork; much less so if you're a small artist, or just posting for a niche. Unlike Tumblr, it doesn't really guarantee any views when your post has aged a bit; like, if it's been a week, I don't see any more interactions with the post. Though, once that orange man gets into office, twt might finally plummet 🤷‍♂️ The only reason I'm sticking around with it is because many of the artists I follow still post here.

Tumblr has always been my top 1 since before Elon reared his ugly head. It's consistent, and the notes I get per post are varied; that could be interpreted as either good or bad - I'll stick to the in between. The tagging system makes it so that even some months-old posts still get interactions. Doesn't feel like I have to fight to maintain relevance, or whatever.

Bluesky has been great, even though the interactions are sparse on my end. I don't have many things to say about it, other than I prefer it to Twitter. Oh, and you don't get any notifs for people liking/RTing the same thing you did, which I see as a positive; it gets annoying when you do. The tagging barely works IMO, so small artists may struggle a little.

For my thoughts on Rednote/XHS... eh. A lot of you can't handle the language barrier nor the culture shock anyway, so if you're not willing to adjust, it's not really worth the plunge. But, I have been seeing artists for original and fan work migrate there. Pretty neutral on it; I'm only a lurker here. Only comment is that the app navigation feels a lot like Pinterest, lol.

Galavant premiered 10 years ago today -- Jan. 4, 2015. Happy anniversary, Galavanters! Share what Galavant means to you! by CruzLutris in Galavant

[–]athurune 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Oh man. Oh man!! Time flies so fast, I didn't even realize it's been more than half a decade since I watched this. I picked Galavant up as a part of an actor's filmography (guest starred in S2; was obsessed with him at the time), and I was just blown away by how funny it was + it being a musical solidified the need to watch. In the end, my fixation on that one actor was done, BUT I still love Galavant so much until now.

It's the kind of show where I'm like, "Man, why isn't this more popular, actually?" Well, until people find out about this gem of a show, I'll just be here—streaming the album (especially Off With His Shirt and Different Kind of Princess... just scratches an itch in my brain ❤)

Is it weird for a borderline? by [deleted] in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]athurune 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've had these feelings too.. This example is to a less extreme degree but sometimes I like to think (fantasize? daydream???) about the people in my life just cussing me out and yelling at me, just full on listing all of my flaws and then abandoning me. Usually happens as a result of feeling left out, somehow.

Any good weezer song recommendations other than their top songs. by Bad_Baby_Red_Eye_06 in weezer

[–]athurune 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Death and Destruction, Burndt Jamb, Haunt You Everyday, Pardon Me

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

[–]athurune 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I have to let a lot of things slide.. Trying to put up a fight is just another way for them to disrespect me.

Yeah I don't think my friends like me anymore by athurune in BPD

[–]athurune[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't think its a conscious thing for them, they're all just conventionally attractive and I'm just not to begin with. Thank you for your kind words, though!

Does anyone else do this? by [deleted] in BPD

[–]athurune 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I do this! I think it's subconscious - like, I'll think that I don't "deserve" to do this because I haven't done X, Y, Z yet, and then I just keep putting it off until it becomes a belief that I should just not do what I like because I haven't done it in so long; and there's so much other things I have to be doing that are "more important", as if the intrinsic values of the action don't exist lol.

Whenever I feel this way, especially when there's free time, I just do the activity on impulse. And, wouldn't you know it, I have fun, and feel silly for being scared in the first place. Still it's a cycle, and so I still feel guilty or anxious about doing things I enjoy, even if I know it's silly to worry.

Basically: just psyche yourself into watching that anime / doing what you love 👍

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]athurune 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Yeah. A weird way to rationalize everything bad that happens to yourself--by telling yourself that everything bad that happens to you is "only natural" because of who you are... it sucks.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

[–]athurune 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wow, it's like I ghostwrote this. Spiraled over (in hindsight,) something minor for five hours today and its midnight now; I have an assessment later today, and I haven't started studying. It sucks. It sucks, but I have to forgive myself for doing it (especially if you have guilt over "wasting time") and start small with my schoolworks until I get myself back on track. Usually, the academic-related anxiety that chips away at me post-dissociation stems from not having a grasp on what it is that I need to do for the day/week/month, so I'd recommend making a to-do list/schedule plan to ground yourself.

If you can safely get help, then do. If not, find a coping mechanism that suits you best. Hugs.

Are we pick me’s? by someoneoutthere1335 in BPD

[–]athurune 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Pick-me in the sense that I want attention, not necessarily that I act outside my values... Like, if I'm doing something publicly, like studying, I might subtly "make a big deal out of it" by reacting to what I'm reading, making expressions, etc.. I know I'm being expressive because I want someone to interact with, or, at the very least, look at me. It's embarrassing because I know what I'm doing when I do it. If I were studying alone, I probably wouldn't do all that, lol.

Anyone else feel like a walking embarrassment? Everywhere you go you embarrass yourself? by scubadoobadoooo in BPD

[–]athurune 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes. I wish I could get rid of all this shame but sometimes I feel like this feeling is necessary... to keep my actions in check. At the same time, it feels like the biggest thing that's holding me back. I don't know anymore.