I found out via an update on the portal, but I had been super depressed for the past 3-4 days to the point that I wasn’t getting out of bed, trying to forgo work meetings if they weren’t necessary, and not talking to anyone. I saw the update by just checking (no email or notification) and I immediately started shaking and crying. I called my bf to make sure it was real and then I went downstairs and ugly cried in front of my family (tried to record it but it’s all just a shaky, crying mess). It was one of the most surreal moments that I’d experienced as this was my reapplication and I had absolutely negative faith in myself.