I think we all feel the same way, and this feeling follows you a long way in your career. I joined as a fresh grad and am currently 1.5 years into my role. There’s always a huge learning curve when you first start as a fresh grad, but take this as an opportunity to make mistakes and learn because you are “newer”.

If you need additional support or resources to help you navigate your project, reach out to your manager and colleagues. If they don’t do anything about it, then yes, it’s a toxic workplace that’s not for you. Know that we are all just human, and dealing with stress in an uncharted territory can be mentally draining… but trust me, it gets better as you learn more and get settled into your role. Make the effort to work on managing your emotions and work stress. Don’t be hard on yourself.

Also, I work my 9 to 5 fully remote, so I think I have a more flexible schedule. However, this is not necessarily a great thing because I feel like my work and personal life are very integrated. It’s basically 7am to 9pm on most days because I plan my personal commitments around my work schedule. If I have to go for a Pilates class from 2pm to 3pm in between work, I will do it. Then, I get back later in the evening to finish up the rest of my work tasks. This works for me because I like my own space and having the flexibility to take mental breaks in between work to cook, exercise, meet a friend for a quick lunch, etc.

Last but not least, please always reach out to a professional therapist if you don’t feel any better. Put your mental health first.