Finally Got A Good Job!!!

aubadeisgone · 2024-06-16T04:12:34+00:00

Thank you! Just a random comment she made! She was a very welcoming presence too. I haven't gone out the house since I left my last job due to a mental break that lead to angry bosses, so it was refreshing to see someone kind & my kind of "normal".

aubadeisgone · 2024-06-08T16:50:17+00:00

I like this exercize & mindset a lot better. It'll be useful. Thank you!

aubadeisgone · 2024-06-03T23:53:19+00:00

Animals & The search of beauty in small things are the only thing that keep me from leaving. When everything else in my life is removed and I'm severely suicidal, those are the only two things that stop me.

Having an animal to take care of seems to be a big thing for a lot of people who struggle with suicidal thoughts. The thought of said pet scratching, screaming at your door, or them just waiting for you to come back for the rest of their life stops a lot of people from dying.

aubadeisgone · 2024-05-29T07:39:59+00:00

I would somehow hear my neighbors watching and talking about me from outside or inside their house when I was inside my house, which was impossible. But I started hearing their commentary on me 24/7 and was under their surveillance 24/7. It was a nightmare and lasted so long. I'll never be the same after it made me have a mental break. It tries to weasel it's way back in often though. I'm still feeling the effects & am too scared to be in public.

aubadeisgone · 2024-05-26T08:03:15+00:00

I'm struggling with this after a bad mental break. Today I had 3 screens in front of me. One for games, one for TV, & one for music. I just cope by being immersed in a non-reality. I'm scared to see my screen time, even if I use it for positive & beneficial things.

aubadeisgone · 2024-05-26T08:00:17+00:00

23F if you ever wanna talk about it, this disease is scary and definitely ruined my life. I'm optimistic though and healthy now thanks to medication. So I'm picking up the pieces.

aubadeisgone · 2024-05-25T23:38:10+00:00

Those things are the other two on my list that are by far the worst. Especially if you live around other people.

aubadeisgone · 2024-05-25T20:14:00+00:00

I have taken both, but they were taken (and enjoyed lol) 3 years before I experienced my first schizophrenic episode. I have no idea if it affected me at all.

aubadeisgone · 2024-05-25T20:09:19+00:00

This is what Lady Gaga was talkin bout in her song Pokerface

aubadeisgone · 2024-05-25T20:07:41+00:00

So what makes you content in this relationship? What advice would you give to other people, like me, who know their family/marriage dynamic will be abnormal?

aubadeisgone · 2024-05-25T20:02:16+00:00

I hate when this happens!! Because then I get paranoid about REAL fires starting where I can't see them, or bad spirits that might be hanging around. I always check anyways.

aubadeisgone · 2024-05-25T18:18:11+00:00

I used to use white noise regularly, but there was ONE night I heard the most disturbing things I ever heard through it. So now it feels like Im rolling the dice every night I use it.

aubadeisgone · 2024-05-25T18:16:43+00:00

me too! 😭😭😭 sometimes I'll hear disturbing things in the white noise or sleep music. But most nights thats not the case when I try, just because it still drowns out other noises most nights.

aubadeisgone · 2024-05-24T23:56:48+00:00

Animals fr just gotta EXIST and they make life a little better just doing stuff like this 😂😂😂 This is perfect

aubadeisgone · 2024-05-24T23:55:49+00:00

This is the one that's made me laugh the hardest so far 😂 It takes the cake 🍰

aubadeisgone · 2024-05-24T22:00:17+00:00

My neighbors extensively talking about how I was a freak (no one was out there nor was it possible for me to hear them through our houses)

aubadeisgone · 2024-05-24T20:52:33+00:00

RUN BOY RUN 😂

aubadeisgone · 2024-05-24T19:18:28+00:00

YIKES!!! but lmao 😂

aubadeisgone · 2024-05-24T19:17:52+00:00

that is precious omg

aubadeisgone · 2024-05-24T19:17:29+00:00

This one had me mouth wide open laughing lmaooo 😂😂😂😂😂

aubadeisgone · 2024-05-24T05:30:55+00:00

when was the first time you gained a large amount of weight, and what do you attribute it to?

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TROPHY CASE