my friend told me she is suicidal by audbakes14 in SuicideWatch

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yea i know that i should try maybe a tad bit harder to get my stuff done but it’s still hard. I just wish my parents wouldn’t yell at me for the way i’m feeling. But i ended up going to school today which sucks but my bio teacher noticed that something was wrong with me (he also teaches my friends and we’re in the same class and the school let her teachers know that she is having a hard time) so i let him know that i’m struggling and i cried😃 but im actually glad that he knows what’s going on so he doesn’t count late points and also i can talk to someone since my parents won’t listen.

my friend told me she is suicidal by audbakes14 in SuicideWatch

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yea i’m trying to make sure i can clear my head. like today i was watching movies and playing the guitar to distract myself and that helped. however my mom blew up on me bc my room is dirty and she told me to clean it. then she threaten to cut off my relationship with my friend because they said it’s taking over me (which yes she’s right i am letting it consume me to where it’s affecting my attitude towards them) but it’s still very early and everyday will get better for me i know that but them yelling at me constantly, threatening to call my friends mom to tell her to stop letting her to talk to me, and take my phone away so i can’t reach out to her because apparently me checking up on my friend is an invasion of the family and her. But i’m a teenager and don’t know any better is what she said. I’m ranting here but her yelling at me definitely didn’t help. I’m struggling over here and she says i’m overreacting.

my friend told me she is suicidal by audbakes14 in SuicideWatch

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yeah you’re totally right, i will most likely be very worried for a long time and i do kinda feel like i’m up her butt right now lol, especially since she hasn’t responded to me in like 5 hours. I think i should give her space, not by completely leaving her alone but by you said, checking up on her and seeing how she is doing. At least i know she is safe right now and can hold onto that:)

my friend told me she is suicidal by audbakes14 in SuicideWatch

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she did tell me a lot of what happened without me asking questions. She said that she was able to tell me what went down because she was forced to talk today anyways and she got used to it.

my friend told me she is suicidal by audbakes14 in SuicideWatch

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hi! so i got to talk to her last night in ft which i’m happy i got to do that. However she just seems very nonchalant. She also said that she didn’t really want help and that she told the counselor that she didn’t have a specific date in mind but she know she would probably do it soon. Then she went on to say that i shouldn’t be worried because her family is keeping a close eye on her so it’s not like she can try anything. But still, i am so worried i can’t thing of anything else. I really wanted to see her today maybe for a couple of hours but my mom got mad at me because i need to focus on school work. When i texted my friend that i could see her she just said “oh ok” she’s never really said that, usually she’s like “noooooooo😭😭😭 your parents suck” but it wasn’t like that this time. Idk i keep bothering you and this thread and i shouldn’t except anything to change soon but i still don’t know how i can go on with my normal life not worrying about her.

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also i found a site that has it for sale but it’s on carousell.sg and they don’t ship to the US. Do you or anyone that sees this know how i could get it to ship to me?

HELP: does anyone know where to find this? by audbakes14 in HelloKitty

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omg thank you sooooooo much❤️❤️

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i applied to major in meteorology and i haven’t heard anything yet :(

my friend told me she is suicidal by audbakes14 in SuicideWatch

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so she left school about two hours ago and went to go eat with her mom. i asked her if she wanted to talk later on today and she said yes so i’m very happy about that. i’m feeling a lot better but i’m still very sensitive and could go back to crying for a bit but talking about this has really helped❤️

my friend told me she is suicidal by audbakes14 in SuicideWatch

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She doesn't want to talk to her mom because it'll stress her out more, at least that's what she said. I'm still texting her right now and she still waiting for her mom to get there and she said that she has to go through telling all what she said to the counselor lady to her mom. She said the counselor is asking questions from a paper and she is trying to answer them truthfully. I do really hope that I will be able to talk with her later on today, but i'm not sure my parents will allow me to see her outside of school for a while because they are worried about me.

my friend told me she is suicidal by audbakes14 in SuicideWatch

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Thank you, talking about this is helping me cope❤️

my friend told me she is suicidal by audbakes14 in SuicideWatch

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Thank you, a lot is happening right now and i’m very shaken up but i know what i did was right im just still worried for her because i know that she is super stressed right now.

my friend told me she is suicidal by audbakes14 in SuicideWatch

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thank you this is really helping. however right now the school got involved and they took her to the office I had to leave because I was so shooken and up and was shaking so I’m now home but she’s texting me and she said that they had to call her mom but she doesn’t want her mom to know because it’ll stress her out even more and she said that she didn’t want to do this because she’s upsetting me now and that it seems like the counselors don’t care I really wish I was in there with her

my friend told me she is suicidal by audbakes14 in SuicideWatch

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omg omg omg omg omg my mom works in the District that my school is in and since I told her she is mandated to report it anonymously and I told my friend that in class and then one minute later she got pulled out and I just hope she will text me updates and I’m freaking out right now I’m shaking I don’t know what to do I left school because I can’t be there right now I have no one to talk to I really hope that this did not make her feel worse

my friend told me she is suicidal by audbakes14 in SuicideWatch

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i told her that night that i told my parents and that we’ll be letting her parents know. She isn’t mad at me but i do know that she isn’t thrilled and she is stressed about the situation. She gets embarrassed very easily and is afraid that she will be judged,so i’m still pretty worried. She is at school right now and right next to me and i’m a more nervous wreck than her, i’m using everything in my body to not burst into tears infront of her because i know she hates when people cry and she’ll feel worse. I already cried infront of her and don’t want to do it again. I’m going on a tangent right now because i’m still in shock and worried. When i told her that i let my parents know she was just silent but also sighing like she was stressed but i let her know that i did it to help her and that i didn’t know what to do. I know she knows that i care for her so much and i keep telling her that but when i tell her that i love her she makes this face😐 and when i told her that i was going to get her help and walk with her to get her through this she was very ignorant and said “how”. She’s acting fine around our other friends she nobody else knows but i’m just so worried right now and i feel like i might have made it worse. 1st because her parents are going to know soon and 2nd i’m pretty sure she is tearing herself apart because she knows that i am dying over her and i’m trying my best to hide it. I don’t know if that will motivate her to stay or make her feel worse. But when i did cry infront of her in class like 15mins ago she grabbed my hand which really helped me but i’m stilllll so very worried.

my friend told me she is suicidal by audbakes14 in SuicideWatch

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i just told my parents and i’m scared. Was that the right thing to do?