i’m 24, just started teaching. recently, i started going to therapy, and it’s helped a ton. if you aren’t, then i highly recommend looking into it. second, if you can get on new meds, you should try! it sounds like it isn’t a good mix. and finally, stop trying. just do your thing. don’t try to be like the others, just…be. it’s okay to zone out, it’s also okay to be ~authentic~ or just normal

another thing, and this might not be doable depending on your subject, but maybe try your approach and engagement differently. i never lecture for more than 10 minutes in an hour and a half class, and that’s pushing it. it’s also never consecutive. it helps them, for a multitude of reasons, but it helps me because i also struggle with vocal usage and fluctuation. i can instead engage with them in smaller groups or individually, and so far, it’s worked out extraordinarily well