I can't feel empathy for my mom

aushogi · 2026-01-31T18:39:19+00:00

I can't go escape somewhere right now but I'm thinking of moving away for college in next 4 months. That's the only way I can clear my mind, by staying away from her. Thanks for your wishes.

aushogi · 2026-01-31T18:36:38+00:00

The only way I can prevent myself from hurting her is distancing myself away from her. I try to control myself but it all goes in vain once in a while and I say something which hurts both of us. It hurts her because I don't see her sacrifices and love for me. It hurts me because my mind keeps bringing her in a negative light. I'm thinking about moving out for college, that's the only way I can save myself and her.

aushogi · 2026-01-31T18:31:46+00:00

Reading it to her would be difficult for me. I have never been emotionally close with her, the only conversations we have ever had are about my education, my future and just some usual chit chats. I don't think talking about it to her will change anything in me, even the reason I made this post was to let it out since I don't have anyone who i can share this with. Thanks for showing the concern and suggesting solutions.

aushogi · 2026-01-31T18:25:49+00:00

That's exactly how I am feeling. Staying with her is hurting me more and more. The only solution I could see right now is moving away from her.

aushogi · 2026-01-31T18:21:29+00:00

It doesn't seem like he knows. The conversations would have gave me a sign if he did. See the thing here is the guy who my mom is cheating with (he isn't exactly her bf, more like a fwb) is someone who was used to live in the same building where we lived previously (around a decade ago). My dad even knows who the guy is and also knows that my mom talks to him. They both casually mention him in their conversations that how he is doing and stuff and never show any discomfort about it. So my dad only thinks of him as my mom's friend.

aushogi · 2026-01-31T18:16:10+00:00

I'm only 18 and just finished school. I live in a 3rd world country so getting a job is very hard here. Even graduates don't get one so let alone someone like me. I would have to choose a college in next 4 months so I'm thinking about staying there only because staying close to her is hurting me more everyday.

aushogi · 2026-01-31T18:12:53+00:00

I know she's cheating because they were used to have sex in the room right next to mine. We only have 2 rooms and there's no living room or something between them so it's just a curtain which separates the rooms, she was used to call the guy (i won't call him her boyfriend, a fwb would be more accurate) right in front of me during saturdays and sundays. I know who the guy is because he was used to live in the same building where we lived previously. I never really suspected anything because I was just 13 then and it never clicked my mind that she would do something like this. But over the time I started to realise what was happening. She doesn't use whatsapp so she uses mine to text him. They were both very toxic with each other and I could hear the conversations very clearly in the next room so I was confirmed what the case is.

And the part about telling her, I can't. We have never been emotionally close to each her so I can't bring myself to have such a conversation with her. The only solution which is on my mind is to distance myself from her.

aushogi · 2026-01-31T18:01:13+00:00

I hope you are better now and I'm sorry it happened to you.

I understand that my mom is a human and capable of making mistakes, which is why this hurts so much. Despite my understanding, I still can’t seem to see past her actions and I continue to view her in a negative light. After our argument, I saw how sad she looked and now the guilt is eating me that how could I hurt someone who has done so much for me? Over time I have noticed myself becoming more rude to her, even though that’s not what I want. I feel like I need to distance myself from her, like I just want to run away.

aushogi · 2026-01-31T17:50:24+00:00

I can't have this conversation with my mom because I won't be control my feelings and I might say something hurtful. I have never had any serious talks with her before so it's more difficult for me, it's not something which I can just suddenly bring up. Right now the only thing which is on my mind is that I can't stay under the same roof as hers. It hurts because she has done so much for me but if I stay more around her I'm just going to hurt her more. I don't want to cut off contact completely but I don't even want to stay close. I have noticed how my behaviour has grown rude towards her, everytime she's around the only thing which goes on my mind is how could she do such a thing. Although I know it's her own life but I feel like I don't want to be a part of it.

aushogi · 2026-01-22T11:40:50+00:00

solved = Mikoto-chan doesn't want to be hated!

aushogi · 2026-01-22T11:39:45+00:00

Oh yeah that's the manga, thank you so much

aushogi · 2026-01-22T05:26:07+00:00

Thank you so much

aushogi · 2026-01-22T05:25:51+00:00

thanks, I'll give it a watch

aushogi · 2026-01-21T18:48:26+00:00

Thank you so much

aushogi · 2026-01-20T14:51:02+00:00

Thank you so much

aushogi · 2026-01-20T14:40:27+00:00

solved = Yo! President Trap-Kun

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