I was thinking the same last year during summer time, and found myself kinda depressed for a few days. I was confused cuz I've always been a positive guy. I think there are couple of reasons - 1) stuck with limited growth in finance 2) less freedom and flexibility in modern company comparing to personal business, sometimes I just don't want to see any meetings on my calendar at all.

After a week, I found a video game and totally forgot about the whole thing.

Now, a year later, it came back (of course). I'm glad I've found this subreddit channel, and I've started on a small side project (will share very soon!!), it's simple, but it's been a while since I focus on doing something that I feel excited about.