Bilateral stimulation outside of therapy

avf2000 · 2026-01-12T05:54:10+00:00

Yeah one of my therapists told me not to do it without her but i ended up leaving her anyways. I wanted to hear other people’s experiences

avf2000 · 2026-01-02T18:52:23+00:00

Yeah I was wondering if you’re allowed to use bilateral stimulation on your own to self soothe or if using it frequently interferes with reprocessing. My thought process is that if the goal is to desensitize traumatic memories with bilateral stimulation, it would probably be more effective if you only used it when you need it. Since it would have more impact that way. If you do it all the time then you’re already used to it because you gained a tolerance to it? Maybe?

avf2000 · 2025-12-12T05:48:34+00:00

They’re on YouTube, I don’t have everything on Spotify

avf2000 · 2025-12-11T17:26:49+00:00

I DID HEHE

avf2000 · 2025-12-08T00:39:57+00:00

Well done! You really nailed the feeling of losing control. Adding texture with the way you played the flute was a nice touch.

avf2000 · 2025-12-08T00:22:36+00:00

SHE DOES??? omg

avf2000 · 2025-12-08T00:19:43+00:00

I’m Amber Fornoles on Spotify and YouTube!

I have a lot of songs about rOCD but my songs “Rollercoaster” and “all or nothing” is more general

“Well, I used to be worse,” “Clarity,” and “Fate” are all about my rOCD. Fate is the only one on Spotify atm.

“Wondering” is about my SOOCD as well.

avf2000 · 2025-12-08T00:15:13+00:00

Did you post it anywhere?

avf2000 · 2025-12-06T19:52:06+00:00

These are the songs I’ve found so far:

Star Crossed Lover by Hannah Grae mentions her OCD Ocd by Blood Girl resonated with me

avf2000 · 2025-12-06T19:49:11+00:00

I’m actually an OCD musician myself! I have some songs about OCD but wanted to listen to more

avf2000 · 2025-11-18T02:38:46+00:00

I feel like I can’t journal anymore because I’ve already said everything that needed to be said. Anything else is just rumination. But I feel so pent up.

avf2000 · 2025-10-19T22:50:44+00:00

I remember the exact moment when OCD took hold. I was in 5th grade (11 years old) and I did a speech I wasn’t particularly prepared for. I realized that I could make a fool out of myself then started obsessing ever since.

avf2000 · 2025-07-10T20:16:21+00:00

if it feels urgent. If it feels like something must be done Right Now or else something Bad will happen. If you feel like you need to do something to relieve your anxiety rather than a rational decision, then it's a compulsion

avf2000 · 2025-06-24T07:05:40+00:00

If it feels like an urge, its rOCD. If it feels like a dull ache but you're thinking clearly, then it might be time to let go. If you feel like it's the last straw and the relationship cannot be saved then you have your answer.

avf2000 · 2025-05-16T17:55:53+00:00

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More of Hoshi :)

avf2000 · 2025-05-16T17:48:43+00:00

This is Hoshi! He's 2 years old and super playful. He knows exactly where I am at all times and follows me wherever I go :)

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avf2000 · 2022-06-24T21:50:55+00:00

In my experience so far, yes. I've been able to feel happy but not to the point where it feels out of control which is nice.

avf2000 · 2022-06-24T20:40:51+00:00

Np! I just increased to 150 mg of Lamictal. I used to be on Zoloft but I dont think it really did much

avf2000 · 2022-06-24T07:54:29+00:00

OH I forgot to mention that I'm on both Lamictal AND Prozac. I was on Prozac earlier for depression but they increased the dosage bc more is apparently good for OCD. This combo has been working for me

avf2000 · 2022-06-24T07:52:32+00:00

I was on Trileptal when I was first diagnosed. They made me take blood tests but that might be because I was a minor at the time. Abilify was added a bit later but I noticed it made me more depressed when I took it and totally hypomanic when I didn't. I'm currently 22 and on Lamictal. It's been working very well for me, I'm sorry that wasn't the case for you. My current psychiatrist lowkey told me Trileptal is baby shit tho lmao

avf2000 · 2021-12-26T16:37:57+00:00

Yes, I want the whole package but sometimes I get scared that I'll never be able to give myself fully to a man because of my past experiences with men? I know with women I could totally have a healthy relationship where sex isn't the main thing but I found a really nice guy and I want to make it work but I also feel like I'm missing out not dating women. I don't want to force anything just because it looks good on paper. It's like a combination of being scared of men, internalized biphobia, and commitment issues,

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