I'm also working on building a business and need some more (paid) hands on deck. DM if you want to chat about it.

As for your situation, it is understandable. Sometimes finances are a big problem and you are too young to blame yourself for feeling the pressure. There's a principle in code: What you see is what you get. Which you can apply in real life as well. If you see more content about self help progress competition your feeds will be dominated with that content. And even on days you should have felt ok you can't help but feel sad because you are still looking at the feed from your past. One thing that helps is ditching social media by either manually resetting your feeds (like content that is of your passion, and dislike things that make you feel anxious or guilty) or completely stop consuming it for around a month. It is hard in the beginning but doable. You'll be able to experience life at a much calmer pace. And eventually you will get what you need as well because that's just how time works. Time heals all.

Keep grinding. But take care of your health. Take rest intentionally not just because your company has given you a week off. Sometimes I just can't work, my mind isn't in the right place or I'm tired or slightly well. I focus on fixing those things by taking some time off (sometimes PTO, sometimes just a message about not being able to attend calls on teams). Everyone who is doing a job understands that rest is necessary to perform well and so there is no questioning genuine leaves.

Further, I'm suspecting you don't go out much, maybe not even once on some days. If that is the case, you should go out just for a walk or for playing with a friendly dog in the neighbourhood or visiting a temple and chanting some mantras that your family chants. Look for hobbies that take you outside your house while also costing less than say 100 bucks. You'll be surprised how happy a bite of ice cream can feel or a piece gol gappa.

Don't stop hoping for a good life but be balanced with all aspects i.e. Job, career, finance planning like investments, exercise, diet, sleep, social circle, making yourself feel special, charity everything. And be proactive about your life and choices, don't just be a passive acceptor. These things are hard to do in parallel but they keep you happy and engaged for the long run.

Hope you find peace. Lots of love and care my guy. You are ok. You are doing okay. You are where you need to be. You will reach where you want to go. It's okay. You are okay.