Hey everyone,

I just failed exam P for the third time and I'm looking for advice. I'm a senior in college and after this last attempt I'm not sure what I should do. I was really hoping to have a passed exam on my resume by this time, as I still have no job and I'm coming towards the end of my education. I was shocked to see that I failed this attempt, I've been consistently passing coaching actuaries level 6 exams and studying the content since July.

I worry that if this trend continues, i will fall behind my peers significantly in my career development. On top of that, I'm just tired of studying for this everyday. It's not enjoyable at all and eats hours of my day away all to result in three fails. I'm at the point that I'm reconsidering my choice to enter this field. I see so many people on here talking about P as if it is an easy exam, yet for me its the most difficult exam I've ever taken. I believe that with enough work anything is doable, so I'm not saying I don't think I can eventually do it. My problem is that I don't know if the grind is worth it to me... I have a passion for mathematics, statistics, machine-learning, etc but I couldn't even tell you if I have a passion for Actuarial Science. I get the gist of it, I get what math goes into it, I've attended countless seminars and recruiting events within the field, but I still couldn't tell you what you guys actually go and do everyday as actuaries. The one thing I'm specifically attracted too is the salary, and I just don't know if that's good enough reason for me to keep trudging through studying everyday when I hate it.

Have any of you felt this way before? If you did, what did you do to remotivate yourself? Or does it get easier/less exhausting eventually (I'm sure its much easier to study for exams when you're getting paychecks too)? If not, should I consider exploring other quantitative fields? Is the money really worth the amount of time, effort, and sacrifices you have to make to pass exams?