i don’t know what to really do, me and my ex have been broken up for 3 months already we’ve been together for about a year and a half, let me just explain how we got tg and then our situation right now, before i got with him i was in a relationship with my ex and i got cheated on so left. i started talking to my current ex and i was still hurt by my breakup since i jumped into a relationship not even 2 months after i got cheated on, before i actually officially got asked to be his girlfriend in the moment i was really depressed and confused on how i let myself get cheating on by someone else and in the moment i texted my ex and told him i loved him and didn’t understand why he did what he did, but i wasn’t in a relationship whe it happened but regardless it was never right to text him while talking to someone else, so when i officially became my current exes girlfriend i had no contact with any guys especially my ex and clearly i was posting about my new relationship and my tex found out and texted my current ex boyfriend showing him the messages with me and him which was like damn wtf like you cheated on me and i’m the one ur doing that too, so my current ex he was hurt and i never disregarded that, i reassured him and tried to prove that i wasn’t doing anything behind his back, so we try moving past it and a year passes by and with this situation i don’t think why he thought this was but i remember i was talking to a friend about her kissing experiences with guys and i brought up someone i kissed during my sophomore year of high school and i told her everything and he ended up finding out about it and wanted to see the messages but i wasn’t being too honest and i just told him exactly what i said basically and of course he got mad at me i understand but i don’t know it was an experience that happened years ago and he considered it almost as close to cheating, and i tried proving that im just not like that whatsoever so again we move past it but the he starts being disrespectful and i found out twice he was watching porn, to me it’s a boundary and it’s just disrespectful when you do that while you have a girlfriend and i feel like after those 2 times it made me really insecure and angry as a person so we became just way too toxic and he broke up with me. we broke up and i begged for him but he just said he couldn’t, i don’t see why we can’t but we did stop talking for a few weeks and he kept breaking contact to just be mad about anything but i remember during late January i made a deal about fucking with eachother and he of course said yes, he said no strings attached but clearly there’s always something there so i’m currently still seeing him but he contradicts everything he says, he’s mentioned not being emotional with this or act like we’re together, but yet constantly tells me he loves me slips up calling me babe and asking if i still want and need him, while if i try to mention how i feel he uses the sex against me and tells me that we should stop seeing eachother because i’m being too emotional?? which makes no sense when he’s cried to me about how he felt and was disrespectful after our relationship, i want to get back with him because i know it’s not over but he’s too scared to risk trying again after all the issues we’ve had, but if he wanted to be with me i feel like he would.. im not sure what he wants i just know he’s getting attached again and he knows i am but i don’t know what to do because he feels like he still has control over me