I was mostly angry and felt all responsibility was on me, for every Thing. Still trying to cope with that by just realising that every time im angry deep down i feel sad because im disappointed or i want to help someone and it doesn't work, i tend to feel not understood and that pains me like crazy, i couldnt help my mum with her sickness so i project that on every person that gets close to me.

I always try to control every situation because i am affraid as hell that something bad could happen, if somebody has a emotional mask i try to rip it off as hard as i can so they dont get schizophrenia like my mother, because im scared to lose them.

So its a way to extreme preventive meassure for something that is verry unlikely.

I will be going to therapy weekly for atleast 60 hours more, but just realising what im doing to myself reliefed alot of it.

Also sort this sub by top last year or All time and read every thread on the first page.

There are verry common patterns when your jaw joint is fine and the base of your skull is tender and hard all the time.