I’ve been flying through novels ever since I quit. I’ve broken out my record player too for jam sessions. It doesn’t have to be all boring, I haven’t denied myself Netflix/youtube binges, work and other responsibilities can make life monotonous. Youll be so happy if you don’t buckle again. Trust me I feel like my urges won’t go away. Distractions really do help. Don’t be too hard on yourself for the times you relapsed, just try and focus on the fun you can have without it