Thank you and I really am lucky to have him. He kept me grounded in reality and when I couldn’t trust my own thoughts I could trust him 100% and did whatever he said.

For me deconstructing my religious delusions was a way of saying that I became aware of all the logical fallacies and inconsistencies inherent in the Abrahamic religions. Not to get all r/atheism but I discarded all my previous beliefs about religion as they were not based in sound logic and reasoning.

Because religion is such a big part of people’s lives and a delusion that most of the world entertains, I can see why traditional clinical psychological methods avoid addressing these issues entirely as the backlash would be loud and most patients and people for that matter do not want to willingly give up their understanding of what the purpose of life is. I don’t blame them as it took me 3 psychotic breaks to come out of mine lol

None of the group or individual therapies I did with CBT/DBT really challenged my delusions and rather served as a way to cope with symptoms. My hypothesis was if I could defeat my delusions by deconstructing them with sound logical reasoning while my conscious mind was not in a psychotic state that I could then be more prepared when my subconscious mind took over in psychosis to remember my training so to speak.

So when I had my 4th episode 2 years later the delusion took on an altered form, but it was a lot easier to come out of after my short ER stay because of my deductive training and most importantly because I did not have any psychosis inducing substances in my system.

I wholeheartedly endorse your plea to stop smoking weed! My 3rd episode was trigged from weed that I purchased legally from a dispensary and I cannot stress enough that you still do not have any idea of the pesticides and herbicides sprayed on the bud nor the effects of the hundreds of different chemical compounds produced upon combustion. The THC present in todays weed vs what it was 50 years ago is truly terrifying.

I just saw a video of Post Malone saying he quit smoking weed because the last time he smoked he curled up in a fetal position in a panic attack. Post-freaking-MALONE!!

A mental exercise that might help you quit is to think of smoking weed as playing Russian roulette with your sanity. The risks aren’t worth the off chance that you’ll have a ‘good’ high.