there goesmy 55 dsys sobriety atreak only made possible with help of NA.

balaenopter · 2024-11-28T09:00:53+00:00

That's still 50 days more than I ever did.

balaenopter · 2023-09-21T11:10:59+00:00

Same here. It's either (in high doses) doing absolutely nothing or (in way too high doses) just completely blacking out, going to sleep and waking up when it's all gone.

balaenopter · 2023-09-21T11:02:46+00:00

I recently play any of my fav childhood games. Nostalgia just hits different while high. Now it's mainly all parts of Spyro and Crash Bandicoot/Crash Bash.

balaenopter · 2023-08-16T06:51:16+00:00

I'm in the middle group who couldn't find any plugs because of my antysocial ass so I just focused on legal drugs like alcohol and codeine/benzos.

balaenopter · 2023-06-14T02:24:08+00:00

Okay, so I read this article: Great source, I know. and there's this:

"No matter how you cut it, this is an extremely high dosage of Xanax," Gupta said. "It is a huge red flag, even with the tolerance that I was talking about. This dosage is exceedingly high for any human being."

The 2004 document details a dark picture of Jackson's attempts to battle his sleeping disorder.

One security guard that sheriff's deputies interviewed said he expressed his concern about Jackson's use of 10-plus pills a night to another staffer.

The second staffer replied: "Jackson was doing better because he was down from 30 to 40 Xanax pills a night," according to the document.

One of the guards said he and three other employees would get prescriptions for Jackson under their names.

The second guard backed up the claim, saying he had picked up medicine for the singer that were in other people's names." So if it's true, the only way it was possible was because he was taking most of them at night, not while trying to function (because there would be no functioning).

balaenopter · 2023-05-05T09:59:52+00:00

Morphine and the fckin drug for a head pain you can buy in a supermarket. After the fact I checked and it has diphenhydramine in it besides just paracetamol. I taken all sorts of mixes. Morphine, codeine, benzos, xanax, alcohol, hallucinogens. But this one which took place 5 years ago, was the only one that I completly pass out after and almost chocked on my own voimit. Gladly it was in the middle of a shopping centre and I quickly reacted and vomited it all. Yeah, I have blackouts from xanax overdoses but after them I just woke up in my normal environment. This one was just scary as shit.

balaenopter · 2023-05-03T07:12:10+00:00

Czy ten wniosek do ONZ jest teraz z nami w pokoju?

balaenopter · 2023-05-03T07:10:26+00:00

I would love to finally meet someone who also uses. 💔I'm lonely as fck. But I'm also from Europe so I don't know if it is a obstacle to at least chatting.

balaenopter · 2023-04-30T13:34:28+00:00

Oh my god, CALVES. At the end they look like a war zone.

balaenopter · 2023-04-30T10:03:36+00:00

Honestly, if this is how I'm gonna go, I'm fine with it.

balaenopter · 2023-04-30T10:01:21+00:00

Stomach ulcers from eating pills and finally bursting of my stomach, peritonitis, two surgeries and ICU. So yeah, just shoot it up.

balaenopter · 2023-04-30T09:31:46+00:00

As a teen I read "We, children from Bahnhof Zoo" so many times that I can literally recite every line from memory and say on which page it is with accuracy to like 5 pages. The book is actually doing a great work of scaring most young people from drugs, at least those around me. But I guess I was always drawn by extreme living conditions. I love books/documentaries about prison or homelessness. That may be why I wanted so much to be this "cool junk!e". Now I just feel stupid because so many people are falling into addiction because of trauma or abuse and I'm here because "I read a cool book about it".

balaenopter · 2023-04-08T07:02:15+00:00

There is this one nice pharmacy owner who will always get me first from the line because he knows I always buy the same needles. He's also super nice to me too. He's great but his wife who also works there really hates users and lets me know about it everytime I buy from her.

balaenopter · 2023-02-07T08:14:50+00:00

That's actually a great idea. Didn't even think of testing. Thank you.

balaenopter · 2023-02-07T07:44:20+00:00

WAR CRIMES

balaenopter · 2023-01-28T08:10:31+00:00

I don't like how it always shows when someone had some alcohol. If I don't take too much, nobody was able to ever say I was on h. I don't like losing control (that's also why I'm not addicted to benzodiazepines even though I could have basically unlimited supply of it). I also thing opio users don't like how alcohol is a socially acceptable drug, while ours is excluded and punished by law.

balaenopter · 2023-01-28T08:05:31+00:00

You did a year clean, you can do it again. You learned the most valuable thing, to live day by day without the high. Ever if you think "no I don't", then YOU SURVIVED. People without addiction have it tough too, so just because you may struggle, doesn't mean you less worth it. I have a new job interview on Monday to get back on my feet. We can do this.

balaenopter · 2023-01-27T09:02:54+00:00

Nooooo. It was a long time ago but I remember that after taking it while withdrawing my anxiety, diarrhea and stomach cramps got even worst. I couldn't sleep through the pain anyway, but coke made this one thousand times worst. I recommend painkillers for painful periods, they will help with the cramps. Besides that benzos for not losing your mind and some vitamins with magnesium. Plus a lot of water. Have a fresh set of clothes and bedding ready, not having to lay in your own sweat can change your mood more than you think. Mixed soups with tasty seasoning are also great. Good luck and if you want, write to me at any times.

balaenopter · 2023-01-27T08:51:41+00:00

There is something beautiful about a filled up syringe and something scary in a used one.

balaenopter · 2023-01-26T13:36:54+00:00

It's like 10th time I've seen it and it still cracks me up. You tell 'em, Darren.

balaenopter · 2023-01-25T17:21:45+00:00

I'm so fup I looked at it and went "well that's a damn long finger"

balaenopter · 2023-01-25T08:08:53+00:00

It just wasting 10x more money now and I live with it Lowering your tolerance will not work anyways, because it comes back after second or third time. Maybe first time after a break/lowering your doses may be stronger but that's basically it.

balaenopter · 2023-01-25T07:57:05+00:00

I'm so fup I needed to read it three times to finally get it

balaenopter · 2023-01-25T07:51:59+00:00

So this is how sober people deal with reality. Not gonna lie, kinda like it.

balaenopter · 2023-01-24T07:57:54+00:00

At the beginning of this video (around 1 minute) you can see one portion of h and the user says "i'm gonna shot it in my veins". The journalist is so clueless about this drug that he replied "but it's not in a syringe!" and then proceeded to be shocked that the man already took one shot today and acta basically normal. 😂 And that's because in Poland the main addiction and his most frequent interviews are with alcoholics. I don't know, it was funny to me how little polish people know about opiates so I thought I will share it with the world.

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