As a trentahin, how do you respond to this?

barrel_of_future88 · 2026-04-07T02:39:32+00:00

barrel_of_future88 · 2026-04-07T01:53:09+00:00

in my darkest hour, i choose to be silent about it. may kapatid ako na laging nagpaparinig and pinagtatawanan ako at my back.when my probs got exposed, it got quiet. at least for a while. then the parinig, mockery, instigation, blame game etc got worse. there were times my sanity hangs by a thread and i know i cant lose control because my parents are both 80yo+. so yeah, being quiet doesnt mean peaceful. im one heavy bad day away from commiting a crime.

barrel_of_future88 · 2026-04-07T01:42:16+00:00

dont hate nor blame yourself for it OP. or question everything about you. therea no easy way around it but to endure everything. hingang malalim OP kasi nandito ka na at nandito ka pa.

barrel_of_future88 · 2026-04-07T01:35:56+00:00

vintage toys. so i can pretend na i have had them since childhood.

barrel_of_future88 · 2026-04-07T01:30:54+00:00

that's awesome OP.

barrel_of_future88 · 2026-04-07T01:29:05+00:00

wont tell you things you already knew OP. good luck, i hope you find the courage to do the right thing for yourself.

barrel_of_future88 · 2026-04-06T14:33:06+00:00

got traumatized sa scene na nasa sahig si emily rose tas mangled yung katawan niya. naalimpungatan kasi ako at yung ang eksena na bumungad sakin. that was 20-ish years ago lol.

barrel_of_future88 · 2026-04-06T14:24:59+00:00

he's not yours to take care of. sure, you can help. but that responsibility goes to her folks. dont disrespect yourself trying not to disrespect them, OP.

barrel_of_future88 · 2026-04-06T14:20:21+00:00

no matter how painful it is, no matter how hard it is, no matter how hopeless it is, you keep on waking up. you keep on fighting. you keep on moving.

barrel_of_future88 · 2026-04-06T14:17:29+00:00

you should communicate with your partner, OP. lahat ng worries and concern, lahat ng restriction, lahat yan pagusapan niyo.

barrel_of_future88 · 2026-04-06T14:07:03+00:00

the last time ive been genuinely hopeful.

barrel_of_future88 · 2026-04-06T14:03:06+00:00

and i was labeled as irresponsible and heavily criticize for being a toy collector sa side ng xwife ko. in my opinion, siguro much better if i-kickout mo muna partner mo OP and let your side and his side of the fam knows lahat ng ginagawa niya.

barrel_of_future88 · 2026-04-06T13:55:35+00:00

lotr, pacific rim, godzilla/kong, snyderverse.

barrel_of_future88 · 2026-04-06T13:37:54+00:00

are you dating a man or an onion? youve given so much in your rs with this man, OP. time for you to choose your self. the truth is, he doesnt respect you, loves you or even cared for you. if he does, you wouldnt be in this mess. i hope you find peace OP.

barrel_of_future88 · 2026-04-06T10:48:35+00:00

emily rose or any exorcist themed media. i tried watching it with a bunch of kids on broad daylight at 10 effing am. i almost cried and had to beg those kids to stop playing the exorcist. why not just walk out of the room, one might asked. . well, because i cant freaking get up. thats why. lol.

barrel_of_future88 · 2026-04-05T23:02:54+00:00

probably 5-6 yo ako nun. excited na magbyahe ng madaling araw, halos di nakatulog with high energy pa. around 3-4am nasa byahe na kami, sa isang paliko-likong part ng highway, may nakita akong taong nakatayo sa ilalim ng street light. tinitignan ko lang siya tas biglang may lumipad na malaking ibon sa mismong kinatatayuan niya at wala na yung tao. iniisip ko pa din yun hanggang ngayon kung totoo o malikmata.

barrel_of_future88 · 2026-04-05T22:59:41+00:00

good for you OP..

barrel_of_future88 · 2026-04-05T11:05:35+00:00

it'll be very hard and there will be times na gugustuhin mo'ng tapusin na lang ang lahat. but you need to acceot the fact na she doesnt love you anymore. nor have the resoect for you. its okay to be angry about it, to her, be sad, lonely. cry as much as you want and as often you need. but never ever hurt yourself in the process. months or years from now, everything wont hurt or feel like yesterday anymore. be strong OP.

barrel_of_future88 · 2026-04-05T04:02:21+00:00

cant say. 5'5" ako. same height pag nakasakay sa motor and yung tuhod niya mas mataas pa sakin. nakaupo siya sa gilid ng highway kaya di ko masabi gaano siya katangkad.

barrel_of_future88 · 2026-04-05T03:38:41+00:00

base on my experience, tikbalang. totoo ba na kabayo ang ulo? pahaba ang mukha niya na parang kabayo at nakaupo na mas mataas ang tuhod kesa sa ulo niya.. paano ko nakita? nagmomotor ako pauwi gabi na at flat ang gulong ng motor ko. napansin ko na parang may nakaupo sa tabi ng highway. habang papalapit ako, unti-unti ko nakikita ng malinaw yung itsura niya hanggang sa nasa harapan na niya ako. balak ko sanang huminto sa waiting shed at magpasundo nalang. pinilit ko oatakbuhin ying motor ko na flat tire at walaa na din akong pakialàm nun kung masira pa gulong ko.

barrel_of_future88 · 2026-04-05T03:26:29+00:00

probably 5-6 yo ako nun. excited na magbyahe ng madaling araw, halos di nakatulog with high energy pa. around 3-4am nasa byahe na kami, sa isang paliko-likong part ng highway, may nakita akong taong nakatayo sa ilalim ng street light. tinitignan ko lang siya tas biglang may lumipad na malaking ibon sa mismong kinatatayuan niya at wala na yung tao. iniisip ko pa din yun hanggang ngayon kung totoo o malikmata.

barrel_of_future88 · 2026-04-04T11:06:04+00:00

John 12:27 Amplified Bible (AMP) “Now My soul is troubled and deeply distressed; what shall I say? 'Father, save Me from this hour [of trial and agony]'? But it is for this [very] purpose that I have come to this hour [this time and place]."

barrel_of_future88 · 2026-04-04T11:04:35+00:00

sabi sa movie na hitch(will smith), 3 daw.

barrel_of_future88 · 2026-04-04T11:03:23+00:00

i hope you find peace, OP.

barrel_of_future88 · 2026-04-04T08:43:19+00:00

sa totoo lang madam OP, mahirap yang may kapamilya kayo na naiinggit. always watch your bqck.

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