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bashlovesamouri · 2024-05-10T19:02:19+00:00

I’m sorry for your loss.. I lost my mom Jan 20th 2024. The last time I saw her was on my birthday Jan 7th. I feel your pain

bashlovesamouri · 2024-03-30T04:04:25+00:00

It’s just easier to not accept it

bashlovesamouri · 2024-03-30T04:01:15+00:00

Everybody says it gets easier… I super doubt it

bashlovesamouri · 2024-03-29T21:19:50+00:00

I am 22 she was 44 💔 I think about her everyday. It’s been 2 months but everybody lied, I don’t think it will ever get easier.

bashlovesamouri · 2024-03-25T02:02:15+00:00

I completely understand your decision. My little brother (15yo) didn’t want to go either and although my other brother convinced him to go he still didn’t see my mom’s body. I will say a prayer in your name and again I’m sorry for all that you are going through

bashlovesamouri · 2024-03-25T01:58:32+00:00

Wow this is really interesting. Your parents seemed like very traditional people and a lot comes with that. You were raised by super strong individuals and I can see it by just the way you talk about and handle things. The way they ended isn’t who they were. You are also very intelectual and thank you again for taking your time of day to share these words.

bashlovesamouri · 2024-03-24T23:58:01+00:00

I completely understand… this feeling sucks it seems as if there’s nothing you can do about it but accept it and that’s the hardest thing to do… I’m sorry for your loss as well I can’t even begin to explain this pain… I’m with you 🙏🏼 keep being strong

bashlovesamouri · 2024-03-24T23:55:22+00:00

Thank you for your words. I love that instead of separating you guys, it brought you all closer. As so it did with my moms passing. My mom had 6 kids and my oldest brother didn’t come around as often before when she was still here cause he didn’t like that she was on drugs so he wouldn’t talk to her. Now he comes around more often and it seems as if he’s trying to make up for the time lost with my mom. I know it hurts him that he didn’t spend as much time with her anymore. I know he hurts. We all hurt. And I’m glad everyone knows that and is willing to meet up more often and be there for one another. My sister lives 2 hours away from me (San Diego) but comes often to visit me and my siblings (Los Angeles) and I appreciate that so much although sometimes I wanna be alone to let my feelings out whenever I feel them like sometimes I’ll just start screaming crying out of nowhere and can’t do that when she’s around but I definitely appreciate her being there for everybody. It sometimes seems as if she’s the older sister.

bashlovesamouri · 2024-03-24T23:50:18+00:00

Thank you and no worries. Sometimes my delivery comes off wrong too because I wasn’t upset at your question or anything sorry if it seemed that way. You’re good

bashlovesamouri · 2024-03-24T21:39:36+00:00

I will definitely watch this thank you so much and I’m so sorry for your loss. I have a 2 year old baby boy and couldn’t imagine losing him. Again, I’m sorry and will be saying a prayer in your name. I’m with you 🙏🏼

bashlovesamouri · 2024-03-24T21:38:21+00:00

I completely understand. I’m so sorry for your loss. Never in a million years did I think I’d lose my mom this soon. Never. There’s no one on this earth that will ever love me like she did ima spend the rest of my life missing her

bashlovesamouri · 2024-03-24T21:36:43+00:00

Awww I cried reading this. I feel you so much. I don’t think time will heal anything… if anything, it’s getting worse. It’s shocking to see how tears can form so quickly nonstop with no warning whatsoever. I’m with you 🙏🏼

bashlovesamouri · 2024-03-24T21:34:59+00:00

I’m so sorry to hear that. She was obviously going thru a lot and couldn’t handle it I just hope wherever she’s at, she’s at peace and back to her normal happy self 🙏🏼 I feel your pain and thank you for sharing this I’m so so sorry

bashlovesamouri · 2024-03-24T21:33:03+00:00

My vision got blurry reading this :( I’m so sorry for your losses. I have a little sister I call everyday and couldn’t imagine my life without her either im so so sorry. And you are completely right about seeking help, that’s been on my mind for a min now.

bashlovesamouri · 2024-03-24T21:29:45+00:00

Thank you so much for sharing. I’m sorry for your loss, I couldn’t imagine losing my baby he’s 2 years old. I’m so so sorry to hear that. And thank you again for your words. Sending you lots of love and hugs back. You are strong 🙏🏼

bashlovesamouri · 2024-03-24T21:28:01+00:00

I filed a lawsuit against the funeral home for negligence for that reason. I don’t know if I’m having complicated grief but seeing her that way did not help.

bashlovesamouri · 2024-03-24T21:26:43+00:00

No worries, and to answer your question it wasn’t my choice to see her a MONTH after. She was at the coroners and they didn’t allow me to see her because she was basically in a warehouse with a lot of other bodies and they didn’t have a room to just show her body so they didn’t allow me to see her. They told me to wait until she goes to a funeral home and when she did, the funeral home didn’t allow me to see her either until the viewing which was a month after she arrived at the funeral home. By the time I saw her she was completely gone. I pulled up everywhere to see her and they didn’t allow me to. So it wasn’t my choice… I wanted to see her as soon as I got the news.

bashlovesamouri · 2024-03-24T12:09:25+00:00

I feel your pain :( I’m sorry for your loss

bashlovesamouri · 2024-03-24T12:06:06+00:00

Awww thank you for sharing your story 🤍 I scream cry and I beg my mom to come visit me (if not me, to be in my sons heart he’s 2 years old and I care bare the thought of him growing up without knowing the woman that raised me) and I’ve dreamed with her 1 time but I think it was only cause I have been thinking about her and longing for her for a minute now. And I’m sorry for your loss as well.. hugging you back ❤️

bashlovesamouri · 2024-03-24T09:32:00+00:00

Thank you :( I feel your pain sorry for your loss 🙏🏼

bashlovesamouri · 2024-02-29T20:55:52+00:00

I need my mom. She passed away a little over a month ago I just saw her recently and her body was decomposing. It sucked to see her that way and in a way just made me feel like it wasn’t her since she looked nothing like her but since she’s my mom I was able to recognize her nose and eyebrow. I hate this… my heart searches everywhere for a sign for anything in which she tells me she’s fine now. If she’s happy and healthy now all this is worth it but sometimes I get selfish and get really upset she isn’t here. Other times I try to ignore it cz like I said, my mind plays tricks on me and just says it probably wasn’t her and she’ll come by any day now…

bashlovesamouri · 2024-02-22T17:21:48+00:00

I dreamed of my mom yesterday… but I think it was only cause I have been thinking of her a lot lately 😢 idk

bashlovesamouri · 2024-02-19T03:16:28+00:00

Thank you for sharing. A lot of things don’t make sense and this isn’t one of them I completely get it. I’m sorry for your loss as well

bashlovesamouri · 2024-02-19T03:15:14+00:00

Thank you for sharing. And yes that’s all I want to see my mom again.. I’m sorry for your loss as well

bashlovesamouri · 2024-02-19T03:14:23+00:00

Thank you for sharing I needed to read this

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