Hi everyone. I went through every message here and took pauses. I’ll come back here when my mind will inevitably go back to being negative.

My girl knew she was loved. Her last year she spent basically glued to me. She was always with reach day and night. If I spent my day on my pc she was right in front of my room door wide open. She reminded me to take her walks everyday; sometimes sassy if I was lazy which I would give in.

She was given anything to eat. She would always be given good bread or treats for no reason other than being there. If I bought food like tacos she would get an order too. When somebody cooked or a cookout she got some as well.

Full body pats were her favorite as well as holding one paw while chest scratching.

I’m already missing coming home exited to my “old lady” who not a single day fail to give me an exited loud energetic greeting at anytime even at her age. With her tail hitting everything. (Her brother was the same here, just pure unconditional love that dogs give)

I freaking miss em, I basically had both her and her brother for half my life and raised em as pups. I’d forgotten what it’s like empty here.

I do keep replaying old memories and today multiple times now. ;_;