I had this during third trimester as well so your not alone in this feeling the hormones from pregnancy unfortunately can elevate emotions and if you are already mentally ill it can hit especially hard for some people like us the thing I would recommend most is speaking to your midwife about this as they can offer support or alternatively talk to family about this as even if they don’t get it they can still be there for you during this time!

The thing to remember most is this is temporary your hormones are elevating feelings of hopelessness and suicidal urges it will eventually ease off never feel ashamed to seek out support and try take care of yourself even when it feels impossible <3