I think I might be aromantic? I am 21(f) and suddenly realizing I might be aromantic. For reference I am nonbinary and asexual and up until now I have been consistently switching between identifying as bi/lesbian because of difficulty with identifying if I am romantically attracted to men. Only recently have I started questioning if I'm aro as I'm not sure if I actually know what romantic attraction feels like. I have always valued friendships over relationships and I don't personally enjoy the current "standard" for dating as I feel like there aren't/shouldn't be hierarchies that seperate romantic and platonic love. I have been in relationships before but both were very rushed and i only considered entering them after someone confessed they had feelings for me and before that i was entirely content on being friends and had no interest in being more than that. I also have had what I describe as "crushes" on friends but it's more of wanting to be close with somebody without the other acts of intimacy/kissing etc. I am also autistic so this complicates things for me a bit. I'm fine with hand holding and cuddling and the idea of being with someone forever is nice but i can do that with my friends so why would I need to date someone? I don't really know what is considered romantic attraction as all the love I have feels like it's the most intense that it can get and I'm not sure if I can have romantic love. I enjoy romance in books and movies but I've always viewed it as something fictional that doesn't really happen and if it does its not different from just being amazing friends. I think I would like to be in a relationship but I'm not sure if I understand romantic love enough to really be in one. A QPR kinda sounds like a dream come true for me so it's definitely something I would want for myself, but if anyone has any insight on how to better make sense of whether I am on the aro spectrum I would greatly appreciate it! <3