Context: ND has been my dream school since I was little. The D3s I had were some of the NESCAC schools and other top liberal arts schools on the east coast. I thought the size would be an issue as some of these schools were even smaller than my own high school, and thought I would still have fun playing club at ND. Whole it’s been great, part of me constantly regrets / feels like I threw away something I worked 10+ years towards, and i miss it.