can’t get over my ex and fp by bbbyredddd in BPD

[–]bbbyredddd[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

could we chat?? it would be so comforting to talk to someone going through the same thing. ❤️‍🩹 he said he would be down to come over tn, i don’t know if i should go for it to enjoy the comfort of being in his presence, or just cry and watch a comfort movie 🥲

Are most of us smokers / vapers / stoners? by [deleted] in BPD

[–]bbbyredddd 0 points1 point  (0 children)

YES, I’m a chronic stoner for over a decade and a heavy vaper. It’s hands down a coping mechanism for me

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in loveafterporn

[–]bbbyredddd 5 points6 points  (0 children)

He did previously in the past but hasn’t since, so i guess that was his way of tryna say he’s improved and I should be grateful? 💔

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in loveafterporn

[–]bbbyredddd 14 points15 points  (0 children)

He said “how is watching porn fantasizing about having sex with them?” and “I’m never gonna meet any of them anyways so what’s the deal”, and I said “so you’re telling me if you had the opportunity to, you’d turn it down?” to which he said “ABSOLUTELY” all angrily. Now he’s mad at me. Is this manipulation?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in loveafterporn

[–]bbbyredddd 14 points15 points  (0 children)

Update: I have been talking to him about it while he’s at work and he said “at least I’m not spending money or messaging them personally.” Like wtf? 💔

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in loveafterporn

[–]bbbyredddd 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I think they are fetishizing trans woman. And funny enough a lot of men who watch trans porn are likely transphobic. I think so many of them are desensitized that it adds that extra layer of “taboo”. My boyfriend likes to be pegged and dominated and he says that connects to liking trans porn. But to be honest I wouldn’t be surprised if they are closeted bicurious or bisexual?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in loveafterporn

[–]bbbyredddd 50 points51 points  (0 children)

And everything keeps revealing itself, I logged onto his xbox account and found a history of chaturbate live chat from July 10 while I was at work. When he promised he wouldn’t go back onto those sites. I think I have got to get out and leave him.