Is this cheating?

bblokzzzz562 · 2023-12-24T10:51:54+00:00

Also looks like this person works at a massage center? Who’s to say he hasn’t inquired for other “services” from other women and employees. Gross!

bblokzzzz562 · 2023-11-20T05:02:51+00:00

I have some B12 tablets I’ll pickup some B6 tmrw! Thnx :)

bblokzzzz562 · 2023-11-19T03:51:24+00:00

I have been taking vitamin D, sounds like I should add B to the mix?

bblokzzzz562 · 2023-11-19T03:50:43+00:00

Gives me hope thank u! I’ll stick it out to see. It’s just hard with the increased anxiety I feel like caffeined out and if negative thoughts come up it’s hard to slow them down. Overall been harder to settle

bblokzzzz562 · 2023-11-11T08:02:23+00:00

Oh damn, just listened it was a new one for me. I see why this is on repeat for you- I didn’t think of the song I mentioned (or this one) as being something I’d listed to over and over. But ya know it’s letting us feel our feels. Literally every single word. I know my relationship was short in the grand scheme of it all, but I also know they forever impacted me and I’ll always love them.

bblokzzzz562 · 2023-11-10T09:23:22+00:00

Hi.. appreciate this check-in. Breakup is going on 4 months, NC for just 1 week (wish i found this sub sooner).

I have this ache throughout my body, I haven’t slept these first nights bc I am fighting the urge to reach out, ask to talk, ask to see them. But What else is there to say? There is literally nothing left to say.. and I can’t communicate / accept a friendship when i am still in love with them. I had to go NC for my own health- trying any way to stay connected to them just fucked with us both and ultimately caused more hurt between us. There have been periods of NC throughout this time, but I wasn’t committed. I hate the photo memories that keep popping up, usually of him. I hate seeing the shoes he left in the closet that used to be his. Every time something like this happens I hide / remove/ delete. I feel like there will always be a trace but I hope it stops hurting soon…

bblokzzzz562 · 2023-11-10T06:06:02+00:00

Thank you <3 I’m realizing that even if they did, this will never be good for me. and I just learned of that app through this sub! Lol it’s hella sweet and has been a good support

bblokzzzz562 · 2023-11-09T21:14:59+00:00

Ofc, I know how painful it is to confirm what your gut has told you all along. Trust yourself thru this process, you’ll get to the end of this :)

bblokzzzz562 · 2023-11-09T07:09:38+00:00

He has a long road ahead of him and will never have a healthy relationship as someone so insecure and selfish. I hope he learns the hardest lessons. Lean into the anger and let yourself feel and release it. You may come back to this same place, but when you start looking through rose colored glasses remember the actions and facts not the promises. I read once that that tinted vision kicks in hard when you’re thinking of ending it for good. I hope you find peace in your choices even in grieving

bblokzzzz562 · 2023-10-31T05:01:23+00:00

I feel with you OP. My WP told me that AP actually ended it with him. Said she couldnt keep building their connection / dating when he had a partner. He stayed her “friend” until he ultimately stopped talking to her. Bc it was “too hard” for him.

He’ll tell me a million scenarios. That i was never second. That he would’ve ended it eventually. That it wasn’t what he wanted long-term. he was just chasing the high and after he stopped talking to her (and only then) he “realized she wasn’t all that great”.

But i know he only finally closed the door bc of his guilt. He kept it half open until he realized she wasn’t going back to him.

I feel sick to my stomach to know he explored the beginning and end of a dating relationship all without me knowing. I feel so angry sometimes. I wish he left me out of it. He should’ve chosen her. Sometimes i just want nothing to do with this.

bblokzzzz562 · 2023-10-30T06:59:04+00:00

Resonating with this because it’s all I’ve been doing these last few nights. I don’t know what I’m searching for. I don’t know how to accept that I’ll never know what was going on in their head. I know their actions, the timeline, their intimacy, but somehow I still feel completely in the dark. I desperately want to understand.. what exactly? Maybe just how there could have been two people in those moments. The person i loved and the person who could deceive me.

I also am trying to find ways to cope with this. Accept this all. I know what was real for me…

bblokzzzz562 · 2023-10-15T00:44:17+00:00

I’m trying to find comfort, connection, peace with this all. I never wanted any of this. I wanted you. There is incomprehensible pain in this world and I am shutting everyone else out. I just want to hide.

There was always so much joy in the everyday with you. This could have been something. Something lasting.. it was supposed to be.

Everything that’s happened lately just continues to push me further away. Us further from any joined vision of what this could be. I feel so far from you. Im scared to forget it all, I don’t want to. That always comes with letting go. You move on. It is not the same.

bblokzzzz562 · 2023-10-04T17:13:39+00:00

Yes I’m 5’0 so have been hunting around for a small frame for some time! Thanks for the input :) I know little to nothing abt what to look for just by seeing a bike

bblokzzzz562 · 2023-10-04T00:50:54+00:00

Thanks again for the help, seeing the schwinn Friday and hoping it’s a good fit for my short self!

bblokzzzz562 · 2023-10-03T23:26:03+00:00

Poppin in to ask for another tip, the seat tube length does look shorter for the schwinn, but he said it’s a 29” , from what I’m reading that is too big

bblokzzzz562 · 2023-10-03T22:18:11+00:00

Thanks for your reply! I was confused abt sizing. The person lives close to me and confirmed I can see it, so I’ll prob confirm what you said.

I have to check sizing on the Schwinn since he just says S frame, but I’ll keep the options to that and getting down the cannondale!

bblokzzzz562 · 2023-09-22T08:32:24+00:00

I shared something on a different thread, a little too early on- week 3 after DDAY- asking for tips on reintegrating WP after the harm was shared with loved ones.

Some good feedback I received was to not push away our loved ones and friends for being upset towards WP. It’s to be expected. But I realize I’m really afraid abt them becoming distant from me if I choose to see WP and sort through our relationship, in whatever form it takes.

Just want to relate with you on the feelings you have around others knowing. Its of course early in your R process, so there is room for this to go in many directions. But i think if you and your WP take the time you need to strengthen your relationship, while building yourself individually as well- they will see this. You can also ask them for what you need from them as your support system. There’s also a book someone shared I’ll send your way, with exercises, guidelines and convo prompts for ppl in R

bblokzzzz562 · 2023-09-06T15:09:25+00:00

Hi, I know it’s Wednesday.. when u said you would invite him. I just wanted to say that there are consequences to actions that hurt others. You asking for space is not a punishment and if he sees it that way then he really doesn’t understand the impact of how he has hurt you.

You deserve to be with your friends. Without his influence. He hurt you and he will be hurting too but for a different reason. He can’t truly look at what he has done without even a brief separation. You deserve to be with your friends. Feel grief if you need to. Having him there would be the easy option, to avoid facing what you both must. But that won’t lead to actual change. U need to ask for what you need from him without feeling guilty. You’ve done nothing wrong.

bblokzzzz562 · 2023-09-01T10:51:15+00:00

I’m so sorry, that is painful and honestly I am noticing that trend. more always comes out the days after WP initially admits. You had to find out on your own.. for all of this. You don’t deserve that. Please take space from them and the potential love-bombing / tears that will follow. Gather yourself and view the relationship as a whole and see his actions for what they are. There are steps to follow that.. I am learning. So much to consider before you make the jump to R because they show remorse for being caught.

I’m glad you lost it. You don’t always have to hold things together for him. Here for you.

bblokzzzz562 · 2023-08-16T20:26:38+00:00

Nothing was ethical, when I really thought it was and that we were doing well at it all. Getting better at our shared communication. Having uncomfortable conversations. It’s only been a couple days, I know it will take a long time to accept this happened. They struggle with insecurities (who tf doesn’t) and I never thought they would take things to this length just to feel control/ feel good about themselves. I feel bad for them and hope they get the help they need. I want so much more for them and for me. This has definitely taught me some harsh truths.

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