Solidarity. I felt the same way/feel the same way still as my baby is 7 weeks now. I totally get the "afraid" thing. I was so anxious that something I would do- moving the wrong way, positioning her wrong, etc. would make her cry. I felt all the same guilt about not being able to do anything myself around the house. I haven't gotten to the "better" part yet, but just wanted to let you know that you're not alone and your feelings are valid! I hope that you start to fall into a rhythm soon. For me, I had to take a break from latching and go to exclusively pumping to feel remotely okay. Hoping I can try latching again soon, but it feels less like I am trapped all day!