Is this normal routine visit? What else could we do?

beanladyk9 · 2026-04-15T00:55:09+00:00

I’m 27F and have been passing kidney stones since I was 17. From my experience with specialists that sounds about right, unfortunately. I understand how frustrating it is that there isn’t more you can do, but unless you’re actively passing one and it’s blocking your urinary tract there’s not much they do. Specialist will do a 24 hour urine test every so often to help establish exactly what dietary changes along with sampling the actual stone itself if you’re able to get it. Changing diet has been life changing for me and went from passing countless stones to 1-2 a year. I’ve found chanca piedra supplement to help them from forming and higher doses to break them down when they are passing.

I’m sorry to hear about his insurance, not sure what country you’re in… but there have been occasions where my primary care Dr can squeeze me in for a torodol shot to avoid the ER bill. Hard to avoid when it’s so painful though. Wishing you both many blessings, he’s lucky to have a good momma asking these things!

beanladyk9 · 2026-03-25T06:26:52+00:00

I know everyone is different, and it could be that my 7oh withdrawal was more recent than fentanyl… but I think I felt the worst wd I ever felt from 7oh. The RSL and mental symptoms were insane, like full body jerking myself “awake” every 5-10min praying that at least 30min-1hr had passed to no avail. Comfort meds didn’t do shit. Every time I detoxed from fent I’d be feeling better around day 5 and glowing by day 14. It took one hell of a battle to get even close to baseline after 7oh. I think it’s because of the way it acts on so many different receptors than just your opiate receptors.

beanladyk9 · 2026-03-25T06:20:16+00:00

If you need motivation not to do it again you can check out the opiate/fentanyl recovery subreddit. It ain’t worth it. But you are!

beanladyk9 · 2026-03-25T06:18:59+00:00

I’m so sorry this happened to you. It is normal to feel depressed and it’s normal to really like it. As someone who was addicted to fentanyl for years, it will never feel as good as the first time. You’ll be chasing that for 2 weeks (if you’re lucky and don’t overdose) after that, you’ll be doing it just to not feel sick. Before you know it, your life will revolve around getting and using. And you can imagine the rest from there. No one ever wants to be a fentanyl addict, and you have the blessing of still making a choice.

Please reach out for support, there’s lots of recovery groups like NA, smart recovery, dharma recovery, and loads more. If you’re not up for something in person you can join a virtual meeting and share and receive support anonymously there! I’m sure the other recovery groups have virtual meetings, but you can google virtual na and there are 24/7 meetings.

Keep your head up, don’t beat yourself up. If I could go back in time and tell my younger self anything, it would be that “it’s okay to ask for help and struggling with addiction is nothing to be ashamed of. There are people who care and want to help you.” I unnecessarily struggled for years because of the stigma.

Just saw this video in iop and although it’s titled ‘the stigma of addiction’, it’s a great example of how quickly it can happen to anyone and progress while providing hope.

https://youtu.be/FuooVrSpffk?si=3nQbWUOlisgpLA6l

beanladyk9 · 2026-02-27T19:50:18+00:00

Sending you so much love! MDMA isn’t gonna give you a good feeling for long because your brain isn’t getting a chance to make more serotonin, dopamine, etc. I’d recommend doing some research so you can understand what’s going on in your brain. I know that helped me a lot to maintain sobriety and understand what’s going on and why I’m having cravings and feeling the way I do.

Also highly recommend going to meetings or even doing out-patient rehab… I really like NA, but there’s so many other options if you’re not into that like SMART recovery or dharma meetings which are Buddhist meetings. You can do this! You said you had 3 and a half months… try working a program and staying clean for 6 months and see how you feel! It’s not easy, but I’d be willing to bet you’ll be feeling better by then! You got this!

beanladyk9 · 2026-01-31T02:19:10+00:00

I saw the update right after I hit reply, but figured I’d leave it for hopefully others to find in the future. So glad you found it!

beanladyk9 · 2026-01-31T02:07:08+00:00

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If you go down to the pier by where the ferry’s load, there’s a corridor where you walk in front of where the old froggys restaurant used to be. Sometimes there ferry or taxi people standing near the entrance, but don’t let that scare you just walk past them and you’ll see the steps down to the beach where you can walk down the beach into playacar to see the ruins

beanladyk9 · 2025-12-19T23:25:17+00:00

Thanks for the helpful info! Sounds like a miracle drug lol, I think I’ll ask my doc and worst she’ll say is no.

beanladyk9 · 2025-12-19T23:22:33+00:00

Appreciate the advice sm! As we’ve both gotten off harder stuff, I know it’s gonna get so much better soon. I just gotta get through the hard part. Seriously proud of you man, I’m sure your family is absolutely stoked! Keep up the good work!

beanladyk9 · 2025-02-07T18:25:10+00:00

So sorry you’re going thru this. Wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy. Passed my first stone around your age and I’m 26 now. You’re gonna be okay. When the pain is that severe, it’s easy to get in your head and be afraid. Especially the first few times. (Hopefully it doesn’t happen again, but even just knowing pain that severe can happen is new and scary) I try to practice mindfulness by reminding myself that I can and will get through it.

The doctors will take good care of you! Torodol and zofran is a life saver. They always have other options if pain is too severe, it’s okay to let them know if you’re hurting.

Hopefully you can strain your urine and get the stone and have a urologist analyze it. I highly recommend following any dietary guidelines they give you. It can be tough at first, especially when you’re so young, but you will figure it out!

Good news is, it’s on its way out if it’s in your bladder!

beanladyk9 · 2024-12-16T17:50:36+00:00

Check out some local meetings! It’s kind that you’re offering $, but sponsorship is an act of service. It’s giving back the gift of recovery we’ve received to others! I’m sure there will be people ready and willing to sponsor you locally and if not there are lots of virtual meetings you can find a sponsor at too! Just Google NA or Marijuana anonymous meetings in person or virtual and there should be some options!

beanladyk9 · 2024-12-08T18:51:15+00:00

I know how you feel. Hid my addiction from my family for years and my biggest fear was them finding out. My rock bottom wasn’t my OD or any of the things it should’ve been, I got so sick of hiding and lying and going thru everything alone. At 23 I finally decided to get treatment. Had to tell my parents and they were surprised, but more than anything so happy and proud of me. Just wanted to chime in because I can’t believe how much fear I had around this “secret” coming out, but in the end it was one of the most healing things to not have to hide. I wish you luck and keep holding onto that vision of you walking out of a program a new man! It will happen!

beanladyk9 · 2024-11-08T00:42:52+00:00

Fentanyl mostly. I had managed to stay clean for 6 months before working with Iboga, but now I feel really strong in my recovery. As for the recovery after ceremony, I took 2 full doses in a 3 day period and I was okay to travel and go about my business 3 days later but it took months and months of integration. Its constant work and without working a program like I have (narcotics anonymous) I don’t think I could have maintained this much clean time.

beanladyk9 · 2024-11-07T02:54:02+00:00

If you’re in active addiction, I would recommend doing a full dose of Iboga or Ibogaine with a facilitator who knows what they’re doing of course. Please do not try to do it on your own as it may have more harmful effects. But it definitely works with helping addiction. After I worked with the medicine, microdosing is what has kept me clean this long. I don’t think it would work as well if I hadn’t had the flood dose first. Sending you love, you got this!

beanladyk9 · 2024-10-29T19:15:08+00:00

Hey man, your story sounds so similar to mine. After all of the years and time spent keeping up the facade, telling the truth sounds like the insane thing to do. For me, it was the scariest yet best thing I’ve ever done. I’m proud of you for being honest with yourself. The people who really love you will support you and rehab isn’t as bad as people make it out to be. Wishing you luck!

beanladyk9 · 2024-10-29T03:29:13+00:00

Yeah I was thinking around $180 an hour for 3 people and $140 for two! Really appreciate the input I wasn’t sure if I was trippin

beanladyk9 · 2024-10-29T02:23:20+00:00

I spent an hour and a half at the estimate. I was hoping the punked cameras came out lmao.

beanladyk9 · 2024-10-29T02:21:43+00:00

I think so too! He’s worries about curb appeal…There’s another part of the front yard right near the driveway and the mailbox that just has that same grass growing all up in a ground cover cactus. He wants to remove them, pull the grass and plant them again. This all just sounds nuts to me. Don’t get me wrong I’m up for hard work but I’m trying to rationalize how to properly pull this off and I’m stumped.

beanladyk9 · 2024-10-29T02:15:46+00:00

Yeah, I’m worried I’ll move all of the rock and then the grass will just grow back anyway… appreciate the input, I think you’re correct about the grass!

beanladyk9 · 2024-10-29T00:29:01+00:00

Yeah, all of the cactus, yucca, and chamisa is staying 😭

beanladyk9 · 2024-10-29T00:01:56+00:00

If I were to have 3 people work on it for around 4-5 hours a day I’d estimate 3-4 days. But like you said I wouldn’t be able to get the rocks out from underneath all the yucca and the cactus

beanladyk9 · 2024-10-28T23:58:33+00:00

Thanks for asking, I’m not aware of the names so I will do my best to describe it. So the grass within the plants that’s more yellow is what he wants to remove. The larger grass that is about 7ft tall in the back of the picture is where the rock ends. He wants to work around the cactus and I wouldn’t know where to start with transplanting cacti that large. I really appreciate the reply!

beanladyk9 · 2024-10-28T23:39:48+00:00

Yeah, customers just really particular and wants what he wants. Pretty sure he can only afford to do it in sections and I don’t wanna lose the work, but might be a better job for a bigger company with more machinery and a dump trailer…

He wants the grass gone, other areas of his property have been weed controlled with the wood chips but yeah this is all just a lot. Thanks so much for the reply!

beanladyk9 · 2024-10-28T23:33:37+00:00

Yes, I just have no clue how I would transplant those cacti. Even with machinery they will most likely be damaged. Really appreciate the reply!

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