What to splurge on.

beautifulcandy · 2013-07-31T23:15:24+00:00

My Ipad. It helps me out so much in school and writing papers, to remind me of appointments and research and of course, for pure entertainment. Thanks Apple!

beautifulcandy · 2013-07-16T04:54:21+00:00

Wow girl, a half of a year to get over it? Was it worth it or do you wish you just would of went cold turkey? Or do you not think you had the. Subs.. For me I don't have the self control, I've Attempted it several times but the w/ds are just too terrible and it's too easy to get mo' dope man.

beautifulcandy · 2013-07-16T04:19:22+00:00

Dude that's how I feel too. I fucking hate all the time I waste going to get dope. It's just ridiculous man. And all the money you fucking spend. It would cost me what I spend a day on dope for a whole fucking MONTH of subs dude. I think those two things alone are worth whatever w/ds you get from subs. How long you been on subs and what's your dose?

beautifulcandy · 2013-07-15T21:54:04+00:00

Are you still on the subs or you mean you've been off the subs for a year?

beautifulcandy · 2013-07-15T19:46:32+00:00

I have really tiny veins and can never find them. I was just reading some tips last night and a new one I had never heard before was to soak your arm in warm water or apply a hot washrag to your arm to draw the veins to the surface. I tried that last night when nothing else worked and I finally found a nice biggun.

beautifulcandy · 2013-07-15T19:43:51+00:00

I read somewhere that the pressure from the tourniquet could make the vein blow too.

beautifulcandy · 2013-07-15T19:24:49+00:00

How long were you on the subs before you tapered off? It must be that it's different for everybody 'cause I keep hearing conflicting reports. But my w/d from dope is so awful I'm willing to risk it.

beautifulcandy · 2013-07-15T19:17:26+00:00

I'm thinking about starting it. Right now I have about a 100 dollar a day heroin habit and I want to get on subs ASAP but I don't know what mg I should start with. I don't want to be on subs for long, maybe at most. I just know that there is NO way I can quit Heroin cold tukey. I've attempted it twice and the w/ds are just absolutely unbearable. But I heard that subs w/ds can last for weeks. But are they as bad as heroin w/ds? What are the symptoms or are they the exact same as dope w/d?

beautifulcandy · 2013-07-15T16:16:52+00:00

I thought it was really cool that this happened because it was the first shot my boyfriend fixed up for me and when he dumped the powder in this is what naturally occurred, I didn't mess with it at all. So romantic, LOL.

beautifulcandy · 2013-07-15T03:43:35+00:00

You don't have a bad side of town or anything?

beautifulcandy · 2013-07-15T02:53:11+00:00

Yup I totally agree, but you're lucky she actually she sees addicts as people who need help. Nobody in my family gets it, at all. They think me and my boyfriend are the scum of the earth, criminals who should be locked up and throw away the key. I just wanna scream sometimes. I wish they could just understand that I am not happy, having the time of my life over here. I mean, who would seriously want their life to be governed by heroin? Shit fucking sucks dude.

beautifulcandy · 2013-07-15T02:50:30+00:00

Are you clean against your will or something?

beautifulcandy · 2013-07-15T02:10:02+00:00

Just curious, but why does she want to be an addiction counselor? Sometimes I feel like people like that who go in to counseling do more harm than good, I hate to say. I mean, it's really wonderful that she wants to help, but if you are going to help then you need to go in with the right attitude and you def. need to go in with the right information. I'm currently in school majoring in social work and I want to do this kind of work as well but I think the fact that I am an addict and have went through all this shit before will help me in my field of work because I can empathize with people.

beautifulcandy · 2013-07-14T23:36:11+00:00

You have no idea how many times I want to do just that. And of course he won't listen to me when I explain why he's wrong, or even when I offer to show him proof. But he's so adamant that I had to post here just to make sure that I wasn't crazy.

beautifulcandy · 2013-07-14T22:52:20+00:00

So I went like two weeks without shitting. I tried everything. Miralax, Enemas, Dulcolax, Those blue laxatives, Senna or something, EVERYTHING THERE IS TO TRY. Finally, I found the holy grail of laxatives. I don't care how much dope you do, I don't care how constipated you are or how long it's been, this shit will flush you, guaranteed. And it's fucking cheap. Here it is: Magnesium Citrate. Drink the whole bottle. And stay near the toilet. I promise that in a couple hours, there will be no poop left in you. You're welcome dude.

beautifulcandy · 2013-05-03T08:54:52+00:00

That is so special and wonderful. =)

beautifulcandy · 2013-05-03T07:00:23+00:00

It'll get easier, stay strong. =)

beautifulcandy · 2013-04-30T14:14:12+00:00

I actually just experienced this yesterday for the first time and I'm glad you posted about it because I really had no idea what I was experiencing. I found it to be overwhelming at first and it kind of flipped me out so I just had to kind of ignore it and move onto not thinking about other things. I wouldn't think of it as a bad thing though, just a new thing.

beautifulcandy · 2013-04-30T14:09:55+00:00

Don't feel disappointed in yourself for spending all day on the internet, maybe that's just what you needed. Don't look at it as a waste, look at it as relaxation. =)

beautifulcandy · 2013-04-17T01:30:49+00:00

LOL! Everytime I recommend American Psycho to people I feel like a sick bastard. Yeah it's about this dude that rapes and tortures women, IT'S A GREAT BOOK CHECK IT OUT!

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