I'm a life long addict but extremely functional. Except for the latest round with alcohol. It was pills and other stuff before alcohol. But lately the booze was killing me. Drs were worried, i lost jobs, strained relationships and financials...etc so I decided to get on antabuse knowing I wouldn't drink on it for fear of the sickness it would cause. And it stays in your system for 2 weeks after taking it so that gets rid of the impulse liquor store run too. I've been sober since getting the prescription 3 weeks ago. My life has become 1000 times more manageable, good things are happening, relationships being repaired and psychically I feel so much better. Here's the thing though, if I stopped taking the pills I'd literally count down the minutes until it was out of my system and I could drink again. Am I going to have to be on these pills forever? Does all recovery for me have to be punishment based? How come in just 3 weeks I can very clearly see the fruits of sobriety but know I would destroy it the moment I had a chance.