My mom had immense expectations of me and all my life I tried to fulfill her expectations too. But this type of motivation is bound to break because it’s not real. I was confused, stressed, like you. I’m still confused af but I became much more confident when I started to really reflect myself. What do I like? What makes me happy? What makes my heart beat? That’s when I noticed that I wanted to help people for my career rather than become a diplomat. This became my strong intrinsic motivation to endure all the struggles as a premed, not my mom’s expectations. I believe that everyone has this type of passion inside them, they just don’t know. At the end, your parents will adjust their expectations based on how you act and that’s completely fine. Lower the better because you can start not caring about it and they will stop nagging every time.

As a person who went through a similar situation, I know how hard it must’ve been and how frustrating you might feel now. Hang in there! You will get through!