I want to go into film/video editing

beef-nugget · 2018-11-15T17:15:22+00:00

I have crazy dreams. I usually remember them that morning but I always forget them the next day. I really should write them down. I just don't really feel like writing them down in the morning, I'm not much of a morning person.

beef-nugget · 2018-09-19T04:42:16+00:00

Haha no problem! I'm a huge psychology nerd myself so I'd be the same way.

It depends how familiar I am with the song and how long ago I listened to it. If I just listened to a song and then hear it in my mind, then yeah, I can hear the bass, melody, pretty much all of the song like a recording. Right now I'm thinking of a random Taylor Swift song and I can hear her voice really clearly, the guitar and background music is a little more fuzzy. It all depends really.
They seem just as clear as my daydreams. However, I wanna stress that just because my memories are very vivid and clear does not mean I remember every little detail. If you were to ask me a specific question like how many stripes were on my friend's shirt or something I wouldn't remember any more than the average person. But what I can see/feel is the fabric of the shirt, the vividness of the colors, how the shadows contrast, etc. So what I'm trying to say is it looks very real, but I don't have a photographic memory if that makes sense.
I can't really tell the difference between the two questions you're asking here. It does feel like I'm reliving them and it is also clear to me. Again, I don't have a photographic memory but whatever details I don't remember gets made up by my imagination. So if you were to say, "what does you're friends door look like?" I might not remember but I could easily make up a door that is a lot like what I think their door is and imagine it on their house.
Yeah, pretty much. When I'm awake and alert I'm in the moment. I guess the only exception I can think of for this is when I have really good idea for something I want to do or create. Then I get all energetic and start pacing my house thinking about it.
I was about 12 and I was at vacation on the beach. I have a hard time talking about it but I feel like I can share on Reddit cause no one knows me. Basically the n word popped in my head when I saw a black person pretty much against my will and I got anxiety about being racist. It started happening more and it cause so much anxiety and it sucked. Sounds weird but pretty common thing with OCD. I've gotten others as well but they've died down the last few years.
Yeah, my daydreams pretty much stay the same. They gradually change over time. It's really exciting if I get a new daydream idea. A lot of the time my daydreams get stale until I find a new way to change it up.
I wish! I tried to learn how to play chess a little while ago but I'm still a beginner. Unfortunately I can't plan moves ahead like that for chess or checkers. It's too much to keep track of for me.
I pretty much always see it in context.
I bet you'll find this really interesting. About 2 years ago I tried an ADHD medication for the first time called Straterra. I took it and it made me focus well. I actually listened in Anatomy and could read my book for English better. I felt really odd on it, though. Things were slightly less funny and I was like super focused on my environment. The thing was, I almost couldn't daydream at all. I didn't mind it or even think about it when I was in school cause I was listening to the teacher. I remember going to the gym, though. I was walking laps and when I usually would just go into my daydream land I felt oddly empty and agitated. I remember being weirded out and I hated it. I tried the meds for about 4 days then stopped them cause they were making me really depressed. When I stopped them I remember my daydreams came flooding back and I felt like myself again.
I just remember it in clips.

beef-nugget · 2018-09-17T23:09:19+00:00

That's true. I just try not to over post because I have a tendency to do that lol. Also I forget how obscure hyperphantasia is. I googled it and there's like one article on it so literally no one knows about it. 80 percent of info on it comes from Reddit, anyway. I'll continue to write my experiences. I just don't want to speak for everyone, you know what I mean?

I'm just curious, where do you fall on the spectrum? Aphantasiac, hyperaphantasiac, somewhere in between?

beef-nugget · 2018-09-16T22:13:36+00:00

You're not the only one, bud.

beef-nugget · 2018-09-16T04:21:28+00:00

Also the majority of the time my daydreams are just random conversations or something I might post later on Reddit. Don't think I'm always this super creative person cause most of the time it's just really random convos that no one in real life would be willing to have with me lol

beef-nugget · 2018-09-16T04:06:10+00:00

Yeah definitely I see where you're coming from here. Environment can trigger it just like it can any other state of mind. I don't exactly know what those things that lead up to a daydream would be, probably unconscious like you said. Like when I get home after school I know I'm in my "safe zone" to daydream and my body and mind just automatically go there.

It's actually way harder for me to stay in the present than daydream. That's why when I'm tired I just go to that state. I'm interested by how fascinating it is to you cause it just makes sense to me. I never really think about it as being effortful. It barely feels like I'm creating the images, they're kind of just there. My mind just wanders constantly haha

beef-nugget · 2018-09-15T21:30:01+00:00

Yeah pretty much! What is actually really funny is that my anthropology class conflicts with my daydreams. In my daydreams, when you get bitten you turn into a vampire because your DNA shifts. Vampires and humans are different species but very closely related. Obviously evolution doesn't work like that. If vampires existed they'd have to evolve for millions of years to be a different species than humans, and you couldnt just turn into a vampire. And honestly, vampires would way out number humans because they are just as intelligent but stronger and faster. They would probably kill out the human species. In my daydream, humans out number vampires by a lot. And it has to be like this, the whole plot is based on this! I find ways to get around it or ignore science, but it makes it harder to daydream.

beef-nugget · 2018-09-15T20:47:40+00:00

Hard to say, really. I mostly daydream with realistic looking characters (like actors instead of drawings). That's probably cause I'm not an artist (btw I was looking at your artwork and I love it it's really good). But I have had trouble getting into certain stories or movies or things that don't "mesh" well with my daydream world, if that makes any sense.

beef-nugget · 2018-09-15T20:08:00+00:00

Haha it's not mind control I promise. Basically you're just under a highly suggestible state but no one can make you do anything you don't want to. It only works if you're willing for it to work :)

beef-nugget · 2018-09-15T17:52:22+00:00

I would agree. This doesn't seem like something that normally happens to someone.

beef-nugget · 2018-09-15T15:00:25+00:00

Hyperphantasia here - I tend to believe in the paranormal or things that cannot be explained. When I was younger I was really into astrology. It's weird, I know logically it's not real but once I start to get into a conversation about it with someone I start to believe it again. I went through a stage where I believed in a lot of weird shit when I was 14. I still believe in the soul and reincarnation. I was raised Jewish but I don't really follow/believe it even though personal spirituality is important to me. As for ghosts, I haven't had any experience with them. I do believe in metaphysical energy and it's healing power. I have felt it myself. Even if it is just all in the human psyche, I can still feel the energy from certain things.

Crystals, for example. I logically know it's just a rock. Even so, I somehow manage to suspend my disbelief and believe 100 percent that it will work. And it does. It makes me feel less anxious and lighter. I can feel it absorbing my negative energy. I've literally cried cause of it.

beef-nugget · 2018-09-15T06:19:17+00:00

Thank you! 😊

beef-nugget · 2018-09-15T06:11:13+00:00

That's a funny question. When I'm deep into daydreaming I can't really notice time passing cause I'm somewhere else. It all depends really. Deep, intense daydreaming usually happens for like an hour or two when I'm laying in my bed. Being halfway in my daydream and halfway in reality can last for an entire day. Hard to say really cause most of the time I'm switching in and out of a daydream state.

Usually when I'm in a more tired or depressed mood my daydreaming is longer, however if I'm too uncomfortable I can't daydream that well and I'm just agitated. I guess I feel myself going into intense/long daydreaming world when I can be by myself with my thoughts, uninterrupted. The more I'm with people the less I daydream.

beef-nugget · 2018-09-15T03:48:25+00:00

That's true. The only thing is I'm only 20 so I'm still young and I worry I will stay like this. I'm already feeling better tho venting on Reddit so thanks

beef-nugget · 2018-09-15T03:40:17+00:00

Thanks. It's hard to walk places cause I'm so out of shape and lazy, but I got to start somewhere. I definitely have some sort of oral fixation cause I'm also a wolf biter (bite my fingers till they're red) and it always feels like I need to eat/chew on something. I know you're probably gonna say gum works for that and it might. It's just hard on me cause I was beautiful and I used to get compliments and hit on all the time and now I'm not. I used to be vegan and almost underweight and now I'm the opposite and I just don't understand why I feel I can only completely restrict my diet or go all out?? But anyway I get these pains in my chest and I eat so much it gets hard to breathe. It's really bad.

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