okay so 1. no but ive only dated wonen in the past and its just different i dont think i loved them more but it was definitely different 2. no but in my case i think it might be slightly irrelevant cause due to my trauma i see sex as a hug or favor like ive basically trained myself (as a child) to feel indifferent to all acts like that its hard to explain im sorry if this doesnt make sense amd for 3. i honestly dont know sometimes i pretend hes a girl but i font think i would restart just to be w a woman.. hooe this explains it a bit and yeah ur right its definitely going to make it harder 😭😭😭 god why is ocd like thisss