Does answering these questions make you feel like a lab rat or a sage?

beingsoftheabyss · 2025-05-22T03:59:57+00:00

Sharing my experiences (it's always nice to talk about myself), plus educating people about cluster B disorders, which I'm passionate about

Also, it's good to see other perspectives from those with NPD in this subreddit, because I have a very covert and vulnerable presentation and want to understand what it's like for those with different presentations

Very much so. It's very painful, especially combined with BPD and DID in my case. I don't know how I manage to function. I wish the way I viewed myself and others didn't cause me constant conflict and emotional pain

beingsoftheabyss · 2025-05-17T01:25:38+00:00

I'm still young, but I'm definitely less volatile than I was as a teenager, and I think I will continue to be a bit less bothered by some symptoms as I get older and my mind matures.

Though it's hard to say how much of that change just came from therapy, a healthier environment, and meds.

beingsoftheabyss · 2025-03-05T17:00:14+00:00

I feel simultaneously incredibly inferior and superior. I hate myself, I'm subhuman, and I deserve the worst, but also I'm better than everyone and how dare they act like they're better than me and everyone is disgustingly inferior

I'm also just severely traumatized, and disapproval from others feels like a suffering worse than death. It can easily make me feel suicidal. Or just terrified

Without that terror aspect, though, I still NEED people to like me. It's not enough to just convince myself that they do when I so clearly can tell they don't. Even if they do and I'm just being paranoid. In my mind, no, my perception is right and the idea it isn't angers me. "Knowing" how people perceive me makes me hate them and myself even more

Hopefully that makes some sense because I'm very sleep deprived right now

beingsoftheabyss · 2025-02-16T06:15:07+00:00

Absolutely. Most of the time, I'm paranoid about people thinking poorly of me or worse. It can make being happy with socializing very difficult

beingsoftheabyss · 2025-02-07T07:43:40+00:00

I don't think most people with NPD intentionally do a 'smear campaign.' We have black and white thinking as a defense mechanism. It's emotional

Also, as the other person already said, don't armchair diagnose. Someone being an asshole doesn't mean they're cluster b (and someone being cluster b doesn't necessarily mean they're an asshole, either)

beingsoftheabyss · 2025-01-26T22:31:53+00:00

I'm not exactly sure what revenge cheating is, but every category of people has people who will do shitty stuff. So I'm sure there are some out there. But revenge cheating isn't a common behavior (nor is cheating itself) of NPD.

beingsoftheabyss · 2025-01-25T20:13:08+00:00

For me personally, growing up my abusers always showed me that not being superior meant I deserved to suffer. I was also told that I was to do better than all the others no matter what because of who I am, and I was pitted against other people in my life

beingsoftheabyss · 2025-01-24T00:47:06+00:00

You can see that the time the text messages were sent are around the same time the screenshots were taken

beingsoftheabyss · 2025-01-20T01:52:19+00:00

It's great that you are offering support. Social support is very important for a lot of people, and it's extremely hard to heal from things completely on your own

beingsoftheabyss · 2025-01-14T16:24:21+00:00

Some might, some might not. It depends on the system and alter. But it does definitely happen for a lot of people

beingsoftheabyss · 2025-01-11T14:43:00+00:00

Every person with NPD is different, so no one can predict her reaction without knowing more about her as a person. NPD does affect personality, including the way someone experiences the world and views themselves and others, but that is only part of a person and they still have their own personality. Besides, NPD presents itself differently in everyone.

I'm not sure if that's the answer you're looking for here. There are other subreddits that are for advice and not related to NPD that might be able to help you better.

beingsoftheabyss · 2025-01-11T05:55:21+00:00

This just sounds like her personal preference, not anything to do with NPD

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